RE: Also

I'm sorry -- I'm having a hellish day at work and I'm having a hard time devoting my mind to this as I want to.

Last night, I wanted to see if I could relax and let go of fear/nervousness with you. And I did for that moment. But I can't sustain it. You and I both know I'm having an internal struggle. A selfish one. This is so hard to explain in e-mail and I wish I could have some privacy and peace here. I'm not saying I want you to go away. I don't, but that might not be my decision. Are you saying you are not going to be able to see me?