RE: I guess

We are friends. Okay, yes, I was hurt because I knew you were back, or at least I thought you were, and I had an expectation that I would hear from you. You see? It's my own fucking fault. I do it to myself, alright? I hurt myself. I didn't know whether I should or shouldn't contact you. I didn't know what frame of mind you would be in when you got back. Whether you finally decided that we shouldn't be in contact. I didn't really want to put myself out there to get hurt again. I feel like you somehow expect me to shower you with attention and praise over and over again so that I can get rejected again and again.

And yes, I have anger, as well. I don't want to keep going over this, especially in e-mail. Frankly, I'll always have anger. I have done my best to do everything you want me to do, but I do have feelings.