Finally

I wanted to take yet another opportunity to apologize to you for our love affair, the aftermath, and my crazy behavior. It seems common to place most blame on me, and I can fully accept it. I never wanted to hurt you or anybody else, but we both know that isn’t possible. A day doesn’t pass when you don’t linger in my mind. Losing such a great friend hurts worse than anything. I often find myself with stories or ideas but quickly return to reality knowing you are gone.

To restate, the only purpose of this message is a final apology with no thought of a reply or anything else. There is no hidden meaning or motive, just a man beat up (yet again) recently over everything so it is all fresh in my mind. Also, this isn’t a call for any type of sympathy, just wanted to send some thoughts your way and then leave you alone.

In addition to being lectured by a few persons and later arguing with them, it was strange to have your ex-husband post on my blog (only a few times) and furthermore his relationship our ex co-worker, but who am I to figure it out or judge it – but just a bit odd.

I sincerely do hope that you are doing well. Your blog implies it, but we all know blogs are not reliable sources. I apologize for not responding to an email you sent about a month ago – it was intercepted and deleted without a response (so, just to explain that). I know it is not worth much, but I will always love you.

Be strong.