RE: Thanks

It truly hurts my heart to think that you feel ripped open, even if you feel you did it to yourself. But maybe it's a good thing as well. Some people never let themselves really feel anything and that's no way to live life.
I'm happy that I got in. When you said you didn't know how I'd done it, since you worked at keeping people out, it gave me such a rush. Even if you tell me you never want to see me again, I'll always know that I got inside and changed you.

For myself, I have learned something -- not sure exactly what it is yet, entirely -- in the last few weeks. Maybe it's that I need to be more open to people and to expressing myself. You never know what can happen when you do, right? And I guess I still feel there's so much more to say. Could be painful, could be beautiful. But I really meant it when I said I didn't want to hurt anyone. Yes, I know that's naive.

If you don't want to see me for awhile, I understand. I hope you don't mean for good? I like to think that you'll want to discuss your thoughts and plans with me. But whatever you decide is how it'll be. You offered the same to me. I want you to have the clarity to make the decisions you are trying to make.

"It's a good thing to have all the props pulled out from under us occasionally. It gives us some sense of what is rock under our feet, and what is sand."
Madeleine L'Engle