RE: International symbol of ???

No, you are already nice and well-rounded.

Hmm, I don't get the lotion and female thing, but if you say so ;)

Crap, gotta go pickup the boy. Talk to you later.

RE: International symbol of ???

I don't know anything about sports. I only know about sex. Do I need to be more well-rounded?

Yeah, me too. I'm at Bath & Body Shop twice or three times a week these days. Let me know if you need me to pick you up anything.

RE: International symbol of ???

That's weird, I watched an interview with an athlete. They asked him about winning, he said the best part was getting there - the journey

Yeah, I've been reading this http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0060839872/qid=1148960005. Actually, it's the lotion, it helps calm me down ;)

RE: International symbol of ???

Oh, it'll be heated. Don't you worry about that. But...it's the journey, not the destination. Oh, well, it's the destination, too, but it's the journey first.

Mild-mannered? Oh sure, now that I don't see you much, you get all zen. ;) Are the two related?

RE: International symbol of ???

Yeah, no need to stretch that out, maybe you should heat the lotion?

Nah, I'm mild-mannered these days.

Ha.

RE: International symbol of ???

Reaaaaallllly. Very interesting. I'm going to have to try it too. Not that I need to prolong it too much.

You may be cool, but what about your hot temper?

Yeah, because they're a mistreated minority. They have no power.

RE: International symbol of ???

Hmm, this cold lotion does work!!

I'll be in an air-conditioned office, hopefully it'll keep me cool.

I wonder if he can keep the Christian-right out of the White House?

RE: International symbol of ???

You're so cute when you're flustered. :)

What a coincidence. Yes, hot and sweaty. How will you stay cool?

Oh, lord, now there's a Da Vinci Code video game too. Next thing you know, Dan Brown will be running for prezzie.

RE: International symbol of ???

No, I need more time!! So much to do ;)

Me? Reading blogs, watching TV, sort of working. Wow, it's gonna be another hot one tomorrow.

RE: International symbol of ???

Yes, there's always something else to be done. Not just for you, though. You know? Some things can wait. Relax some more. :)

Reading blogs, watching TV, sort of working. What are you doing?

RE: International symbol of ???

I'm nodding approval.

Oh, okay, you didn't say that :)

Yeah, no matter what I do - there's always something else to be done. Yes, I realize I have problems. Whatcha doing now?

RE: International symbol of ???

Mm, I like your attitude about my attitude.

Ah, that's better. But I meant focus on ME. ;)

You never feel productive? You seem like you are to me. I usually don't feel productive. I remind myself that downtime is important, too.

RE: International symbol of ???

Clunky goth boots would be sexy goth boots on you. It's all attitude.

Is it? Sorry, I'm trying to focus.

Funny, you say that, I never feel productive.

RE: International symbol of ???

Well, they are sexy heels, not clunky goth boots.

Your body language is threatening and stubborn, grasshopper. Please, relax and focus.

Sounds like a busy day. Very productive. ;)

RE: International symbol of ???

Oh, don’t be so stingy!

Hmm, okay (arms crossed).

It was okay. In the office this morning for a couple hours, cookout at Mom’s house, fixed her lawn mower, came home – the boy's girlfriend came over, bought them pizza, fell asleep, went to the store, yadda yadda yadda ....

RE: International symbol of ???

Ew, she cannot wear these shoes! Yuck.

I know you are not patient, grasshopper. You must persevere.

How was your day?

RE: International symbol of ???

Wow, okay.

It's the wearer of the shoes that make them hot. If you doubt that, close your eyes (c'mon close them) and imagine her wearing them.

Patience is not one of my strong points.

Hmm, okay.

RE: International symbol of ???

Excellent, an experiment. It is supposed to be vanilla lotion, by the way.
Let me know if you need any help.

Right, and these shoes are hot!

Oh, you are still obsessed with the answer of "both sides at the same time."
Perhaps more details will be forthcoming. Be patient.

No, you aren't supposed to get me anything.

RE: International symbol of ???

Yeah, and wouldn't it freeze?? Okay, I'll stop thinking about it, but I did put some lotion in the freezer. I'll let you know how it goes.

Of course you have plenty of black shoes, but not enough.

Two? Can you do both at the same time? Crap, I guess I'm supposed to get you something.

RE: International symbol of ???

It didn't quite make sense to me (the cold) either. But it sure seemed to crack everybody up! I don't have any idea what it was about. The weather?

Bronze shoes and black shoes, and no, I don't already have enough black shoes.

Actually, I got you TWO things.

RE: International symbol of ???

I would think cold lotion would stop the experience, but I guess it warms up quickly. Hmm, interesting, I wonder what that dream was about?

I think I've been to those stores - a few years ago. More shoes?? ;) Hmm, I wonder what it is.

RE: International symbol of ???

Oh, that sounds like a terrible nightmare. I dreamed that I was having this big party. It was packed. I went into the kitchen to get ice and when I opened the freezer, I found two bottles of my lotion. I questioned the group about what they were doing in there and two guys told me that they had put it in there because they used it for masturbating and keeping it cool prolonged the experience. Then the whole room full of people burst out laughing.

We went to the outlet stores. Not my choice, but it was fine. I bought a lot of clothes, shoes, a wallet, new laptop bag. Oh, it's a little something-something -- I'll give it to you next time I see you.

RE: International symbol of ???

I had a dream, well I guess it is considered a nightmare, that everyone around me (family, friends, ...) died. So, what's your dream?

Where did you shop? Buy more jewelry? Oh, what is it?

RE: International symbol of ???

Funny, I had the same kind of night. I kept waking up, had to get up for awhile, and had a crazy dream I have to tell you about.

I'm feeling better thanks. Well, we shopped up a storm and are all tired now. No drinking, but I did eat a monster burger for lunch. It was a pretty good day. I hope you had one too. :)

Oh, I got something for you, too. ;)

RE: International symbol of ???

Wow, I wonder what is supposed to mean?

I went to sleep, then woke up around three, back to bed around five, up at ten, ... kind of a restless sleep. H'bout you? The stomach a-okay?

I hope you have fun shopping, laughing, eating, drinking and all the rest.

International symbol of ???

http://www.jokesgallery.com/joke.php?joke=3861&id=1

Well, well, well. They lay it all out in Greece, don't they?

Hope you got a good night's sleep. the girls invited me to go shopping today, so we'll be acting all girly, I'm sure. Gonna be a hot Memorial Day! :)

RE: Fun

As Janet said, I miss you much :)

Fun

I've been missing you hard today. I'm not fishing for comments or compliments or anything like that. I just wanted to tell you.

RE: Nice

Yes, and it goes without saying that I do love you very much so.

And, I'm like an onion, the more layers you pull off - the more I stink ;)

I'm off to the races! $5/win/race 4/#3

RE: Nice

Ah, guess I'll have to be satisfied with having an opinion that matters, rather than getting to hear you tell me you love me. I've never known such a complicated person. You fascinate me. I want to keep getting down into the deeper layers of you, if I can.

RE: I see

I guess you're trying to start something, but the answer is no to anything you're thinking.

RE: I see

That's not an answer.

RE: Nice

Because you make me feel a way (or things) I've never felt before, you make me consider things I never thought I'd consider, you make my heart drop when you look at me, you're a person I don't want to disappoint (although I already have), ...

You scare me because your opinion matters to me. When you described me the other night in the truck, your words were like daggers piercing my heart. That may be hard to understand - I'm not sure, but while I do care what others think about me, it normally doesn't bother me if they don't like me. But, I laid awake Thursday night with your words swirling in my mind. It was so weird, I guess I didn't react or respond that night because I had no clue what was going on - it hurt so bad that I was embarrassed. No, I'm not still upset over it, so no apology necessary. I'm just trying to make a point, but I probably failed.

Oh, and yes you are so damned smart, and I do miss you, and you make me shiver when you look at me.

RE: I see

Hmm, you're becoming predictable ;)

RE: Witch Woman

Got it.

Witch Woman

Would you put $5 on Witch Woman, number 3, in the fourth for me? I'll make it worth your while...

I see

I see you got your cyber friend back. You two e-mailing up a storm now?

RE: Nice

What do you mean I scare the hell out of you? You're going to have to elaborate on that. Because I'm so damned smart? Cute? Because you miss me terribly when I'm not around? Because I make you shiver when I touch you?
Because you love me so much? ;)

RE: Nice

Nah, you didn't put your foot in your mouth, some things need to be said. Yes, it's always fun talking to you too. Always.

It doesn't take smarts to choose who'll be paying when you go out with an unemployed woman (with kids and an unemployed husband). No twin stories? Damn.

I guess I see the bigger picture, ain't I smart? Sometimes I want to be happy in the moment, but I'm so afraid of what happens later and I don't want to hurt you again. Honestly, you scare the hell out of me. Don't take that the wrong way, but I just don't know any other way to say it.

If you would have fucked her, there wouldn't be any problem (wink) - I'm just joking.

RE: Nice

Please don't ever hesitate to call me. It would make me so very happy if you did. I adore talking to you, anywhere, anyhow. It makes me happy. Wow, today was such a roller coaster. Hard day at work, after a hard week, and then you surprised me by asking me to meet you. Of course, it made me feel all warm inside. Especially since I got to see you smile, after worrying that I had stuck my foot in my mouth again. Fun, fun, fun. Always.

I had a good time with her. No really crazy stories. She says (at least
today) that she's thinking she'll go to NY for the summer and then be back here. Which would be nice, I think. And yes, I did pay for dinner and drinks. ;) You're so smart.

I wanted to caress you, stroke you, soothe you, kiss you, whisper in your ear and tell you I love you today. I always want to, but I don't want to hurt you. Sometimes, you're stronger than I am. You can see the bigger picture and what is right. Sometimes, I can. When you see it first, it shames me, but I still love you with all my heart. Always.

Oh, and fuck whats-her-name. She was never a real friend. (Yes I've been drinking but that doesn't make it any less true.)

I love you,
your Kachina

Nice

Hey,

I hope you had (or are having) fun with your buddy. Any good stories?

It was nice to sit and chat this afternoon. You shouldn’t get so upset over her, you tried your best with her – what more can a supposed friend expect?

I guess the tension will always be there between us? You make me so anxious – or, I guess, I do that to myself. I want to hold you, touch you, yadda yadda yadda. I guess we’ve been there before and I let you down. Oh well, I was going to call you later in the evening, but I didn’t want to crash your time with her. Again, I hope you’re smiling.

RE: What did he do?

Okay, that makes sense

RE: What did he do?

Probably he washed her windows and he felt like if he'd done both sides at once, he'd have been more efficient.

RE: What did he do?

Or, did he do two things separately and wished he could do them at the same time? I feel like he is commiserating over it.

RE: What did he do?

I thought about front and back, top and bottom. If it was two sides at the same time, does that mean it's something he has to have two of to do it? Hands or feet? Eyes? Ears? Elbows?

RE: What did he do?

Very confusing ... Could it be front and back at the same time? Maybe she has a twin, and he wanted to "do" both at the same time?

RE: What did he do?

I'm sure I'm reading too much into this, but he seems kind of shocked by what he did. What was it??? Bit something off? Stuck something on? Both sides at the same time....hmm.

RE: What did he do?

Yeah, how does doing both sides at the same time relate to that - what the hell did he do??

RE: What did he do?

Yes...I guess that may be it, but was that the first time? Maybe he "did" more than just touch. I'm tempted to leave a comment and ask.

RE: What did he do?

Grabbed or touched her chest? But, "..I wish I'd done the other side.." is odd.

RE: What did he do?

I know! I saw that...and wondered. Both sides? What's your guess?

What did he do?

http://3532.blogspot.com/2006/05/i-did-that.html

RE: Insomnolence

Well, get some lunch ready!!

I can meet wherever.

RE: Insomnolence

home

Insomnolence

Insomnolence, insomnia, restlessness, ... yep, I can't sleep ... pass the wine!!

I must stop thinking of you, but then I consider lunch Thursday but ...

RE: Also

What I want and can do are the same thing. I've never wavered, and I do accept the lack of morality in this situation. I know how I feel, and I'm willing to accept the risk with the feeling it is worth it. Yes, that is selfish. If that makes me a bad person, then so be it. I don't want to have any regrets, and I won't regret this experience since I shared my feelings. It will hurt, but that just means it is real.

I had a weird feeling as I watched you walk to your house last night. It was an odd thought of whether I'd see you again, so I guess you may have answered that question/doubt. I wish I could tell you that my feelings will subside, but that'll take a time (if it happens).

RE: So Nice

Nah, I just got lucky with a few things.

No more of a nut than usual, sorry I laughed - I was just trying to get you to laugh although it really isn't funny. See, you should've hired your old pal - she would've always been there and she could double as the janitor!

RE: So Nice

You're very much in demand, and that is good.

Yes, it's only a job. It'll work out. Thanks for listening to me. I'm sure I sounded like a nut talking about it. Got to me a little too much today.

RE: So Nice

Gotta stay busy, plus it won't last forever.

That new goy is a rock. Remember, it is only a job ;)

RE: So Nice

You're very worky lately. ;)

Yeah, I feel like I may shed a tear, just to let some stress out. Hm, I guess tomorrow it'll just be me and the new black guy. At least it'll be quiet. Until I blow up!

RE: So Nice

Yeah, working on this data - but there is no crying over here ;)

RE: So Nice

Okay. Thank you.

Are you working tonight? I can't stop thinking about work. I guess I may as well be doing it.

RE: So Nice

You could ask anybody, and they'd have that reaction. The stories are not worth your well-being.

RE: So Nice

You could ask anybody, and they'd have that reaction. The stories are not worth your well-being.

RE: So Nice

Yes, I understand what you are saying. I talked to my husband about it and he had the same reaction. I feel bad about saying that I'll commit and then pulling out, though. Maybe I can talk to her about another site. When I talk to her, I'll be sure to mention the questionable circumstances. Like I said, everybody behaved, but you're right, there could be a lunatic that snaps in there one day. But don't you want me to go and collect stories for you...?

RE: So Nice

Niiice, I forgot all about the peeing (thankfully).

I wasn't being silly about the halfway house. There is nothing good about the situation in which you were placed. It makes me nervous to think of you in there - especially after visiting the place. Now, I don't look down on guys that have served time nor do I think they can't be trusted, but it only takes one lunatic to harm you. I don't want anything bad (any good stuff is welcome) to happen to you. It is great to volunteer and help others, but not when it puts you in danger. I think very little of the program after my experience (no communication), the total disorganization, and so forth.

So Nice

Good to see you. I was surprised -- really got a cold feeling from you yesterday but I was glad to see you and it was fun. The librarian guy should always let ME pick the books. ;) And he didn't pee on himself today! Not while I was there, anyway. Now I can't stop thinking about your halfway house comments.....hmmmm.....

RE: Angry?

I thought it was next week, I'm wrong again.

RE: Angry?

Oh, I thought you were going to go to the book club and postpone the tutoring for a week?

RE: Angry?

Is it tomorrow? If so, nope, I have the tutoring.

RE: Angry?

Yes, the training left something to be desired, didn't it? I wanted to ask, "so what are y'all in for? What'd you do?" But I refrained. Maybe next time...

Are you going to the book club tomorrow? I'm trying to finish rereading Ripley, but I might not make it all the way through.

RE: Angry?

It's fine, I'm working.
I guess that is to be expected after the training experience

RE: Angry?

Okay, you are freaking me out with your short answers.

I'm sure they probably need both. The "class" is pretty big. They threw me in this room with four guys, and then two of them left for various reasons, and the last two were pretty good, as far as working, but they don't read well at all. I was making it up as I went along -- don't like that at all.

RE: Angry?

I'm fine.

She said reading. I'd rather do math, but I'll do whatever they need.

RE: Angry?

Are you sure you're not upset? I'm really sorry. When I saw you took down that blog post from earlier, I figured you were furious at me.

Yeah, it was strange. I should have been better prepared, but the guys were pretty well-behaved and I have a couple of weeks to prepare for the next time (holiday next Monday). But I'll definitely go back. Did they tell you if they wanted you to help with reading or math or both?

RE: Angry?

Nothing to forgive.

Hmm, I'm nervous, but we'll see how it goes.

RE: Angry?

Ok, good. I opened up hotmail in order to apologize. I'm sorry I annoyed you. I apologize. You forgive me?

The tutoring did go well. I didn't know what I was doing, but hopefully it'll go even better next time. I hope you enjoy it when you go.

RE: Angry?

Nope, I'm not angry.

I hope the tutoring went well.

Angry?

I guess you are very angry at me? Should I not tell you things that bother me? Can we not agree to disagree on some things?

Well, I am off to tutoring.

RE: Friendship

Yeah, lots of questions, and it seems we always slip backwards after we settle on anything. I was so nervous last night, because what I was doing was wrong (against everything I had recently said). It really hit me last night. I never thought my mind would win an argument with my body, but it did - and it always will. How could I be with such a beautiful and special woman and be thinking of my family? There just can't be anything physical, and I know it has all been my fault. I know you're going to eventually hate me. The guilt has been a bit overwhelming lately. What we are and have been doing is wrong, I know we both know it deep down, but that doesn't help. Why would you ever wait for me to make any decision? You deserve so much better than that - you deserve the world. I love you, but I realize that it will never happen, because I love my wife and I always will. It scares me to think of her realizing some of the things I've done lately, she'd walk away and hate me forever. That would be devastating, but it is what I deserve. I feel like I should tell her the rest of the story, but I don't have the nerve. I've thought that you would call or visit or do whatever to reveal everything and that scares me too. I'm not sure how you feel about your side of the situation, so you may disagree. I've wanted to ask, but (as you said) we haven't seen each other that much lately.

I know we said we didn't want to say these things in email, but then you sent your questions. Let me know if you want to get together after work tomorrow and we can talk face-to-face.

RE: Friendship

I have so many. I don't know why I'm afraid to ask them. But we see each other so infrequently now, it's hard to fit everything that I want to say in. And I'm afraid to freak you out. You know? I want to know if I'm pressuring you into physical stuff that you have told me you want to stop.

If I'm hurting you. If this friendship is going to work, or not, or if it's going to be something more. What you meant when you said something about when or if you choose me later. What we are doing. You see? Once I start, there will be a thousand questions. But these are things we do have to figure out.

It wasn't your fault, and it has nothing to do with my feeling bad today (I felt bad on Sunday too). I can say more - but as you say - it doesn't seem right in email. I have the misguided idea that medication is not needed.

I don't know if I have a lot of questions, but I'm ready to field yours.

RE: Friendship

I'm sorry I made you nervous. Is that why you feel sick now? Nerves? Why aren't you taking anything? Well, I have a lot of questions, but I don't want to throw them all at you at once, and not necessarily in e-mail either.

Yes, I have a lot of questions. Don't you?

RE: Friendship

No medication (yes I know - I should be taking something) - just nerves. Ask any question that enters your pretty brain.

RE: Friendship

You're speechless? Wow, has that ever happened? I guess I don't know what to say either.

RE: Tomorrow's horoscope

Oh wait, that was a typo - the last line should read ... "The less you try to do now, the more likely you will find a piece."

RE: Friendship

Oh. Well, I don't know what to say about that. I really don't.

RE: Friendship

You're on my brain as well, but I guess I messed up the "I want you" statement with yesterday's actions.

RE: Tomorrow's horoscope

Finding peace sounds like a good result. Try for that.

Tomorrow's horoscope

Wow, it looks like I shouldn't do anything tomorrow ... "Your key planet Mars may be totally befuddled, throwing you off course -- especially if you expect to accomplish measurable results today. If, on the other hand, you are spending the day in spiritual practice or watching waves at the beach, then all may be just as planned. The less you try to do now, the more likely you will find peace."

RE: Friendship

Ok, no problem.

RE: Friendship

Ha, I was just kidding, I kid!! Smile :)

RE: Friendship

thanks

RE: Friendship

Yeah, with your bloater paste breath ;)

RE: Friendship

I've got you on my brain. You should be here right now. I want you.

RE: Friendship

Yes, yes, and yes.

Hm, the negative connotations may prevent me from doing so. Yup, that's gonna be a problem. You've got sex on the brain.

RE: Friendship

That's putting it bluntly. You can be my king. I'm not afraid of you, Stalin.

RE: Friendship

It's good to be the King. I wouldn't be a good leader, I'd have my Stalin moments and then everybody would be gone ...

RE: OOOOOOOOOOH MAAAAAAAAAAH GAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!

I love you too :)

RE: OOOOOOOOOOH MAAAAAAAAAAH GAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!

We have to stick together (against the non-nuts). I love you.

Friendship

You can get some free advice from that guy you used to work with. You see his blog? Is he talking about you? I always loved the blunt attitudes up north.

I knew you loved him. We should have signed up for his writing class.

RE: OOOOOOOOOOH MAAAAAAAAAAH GAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!

It takes one to know one.

RE: OOOOOOOOOOH MAAAAAAAAAAH GAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!

My heart is RACING and not in a good way! You are a nut. ;)

OOOOOOOOOOH MAAAAAAAAAAH GAAAAAAAHHHHHHH

How's that for a subject line?

RE: I read it

It made me want to go to Amsterdam. I'm not sure I related to the characters, but I liked the story and the writing. I'm wondering what parts would have special significance to me? Hmm.

Yeah, those Dream On episodes get better. I'll give you the next CD when I see you again. Also, I have the Everything Changes book as well. I finished Tropper's The Book Of Joe and it was okay. I really like his writing, but there are parts of the story that are too perfect (life isn't so perfect, or is it?). This is true of the Everything Changes story as well.

I read it

I read your book, A Father's Affair. I liked it, though I had a bit of a hard time relating to the characters. I suppose parts of it had a special significance for you. It did make me want to go back to Amsterdam. ;)

I also watched several of the Dream On shows. You're so right, it holds up.
I love Toby the assistant. She doesn't take any crap from anybody.