RE: Three things

The old saying 'curiosity killed the cat' comes to mind. I hate to say this, because I'm not trying to make you feel bad, worse, or whatever, but I can't see any of personal good qualities at the moment.

Last night was one of the longest I've ever experienced. I guess the finality of it all sank in. Really, I was blindsided by our final conversation next to your car. I did my best to put on my mask as I felt my insides tremble. It may seem odd, but I wanted to make sure you were okay as we left, so I could retreat and berate myself in solitude. I was thinking that maybe I was supposed to fight your decision, kinda make my case, but it just didn't seem plausible or fair to you. Don't get me wrong, you are worth a fight, but I don't think it is a battle I could ever win.

Again, I'm not trying to be mean, but can your disappointment over me not showing Monday match my present state of disappointment? I'm telling myself that while this pain may seem unbearable, I will somehow survive. Who knows how it will happen, but I am imploring myself to get through this. Maybe one day we'll reflect and laugh about the whole thing.