RE: Hey

I know you are totally wiped out. It's been an insane couple of weeks or so.

It's not easy to think when you're so tired, and everybody, including me, bitching at you doesn't help. I hope you can get some rest -- maybe you got those sleeping pills from mom?

My day was okay. I bought some crap, put some crap away, that sort of thing. I'm going to go back to [her house] for a bit and hand out candy. Then I'll head over to my apartment. Hope that bed is comfortable.

I miss you already and want to talk, when we have a chance. Or just sit and not talk. I don't know.

Take care.

RE: Hey

I'm sorry for being a dick last night (and all other times). You were right a while back when you said "this is real." It doesn't get any more real than this. I know you're going through the same shit, but I'm not sure about the whole thing. You were right last night when you said the arrangement at my house is going to be awkward/bad. And, expecting you to sit on the sidelines may be insane. I just know it will - as it has been - be unacceptable for you and why would it be? I just envision more fights and arguments with any and everybody. I dunno, maybe I'm wrong. I know you're tired and stressed - I am exhausted, I feel like I've been in a fight - and lost badly. I'm going to leave shortly and >crawl into a quiet corner and close my eyes. Well, we can talk more later.

I hope your day was good as expected.

Hey

I know I can be a real bitch and I'm sorry for the hurtful things I said.

None of this is easy for anyone. There is nothing that will make everyone happy. I know I can't have everything I want -- that's life. I love you and trust you and I want to make it work.

In a little while, I'm going to go meet [a friend] and hang out on my last day off work and try to act like a normal human being. I hope your day goes okay.

You know if you need anything, you can lean on your office mate. ;)

RE: Thoughts

You are far from the typical woman or any woman I've ever known. I've said a lot, but I guess I've done a bad job detailing my relationship with [him]. Maybe I'm wrong about the whole thing. I know how I felt when my dad left us, and I just don't want him feeling that way about me - not yet. It isn't the typical father/son scenario - things would change drastically with a split. No, she didn't use him against me.

I'm sorry, I'm not the best at expressing my emotions, so my reactions never seem to match your expectations, but you're wrong about my not being upset about your absence - that is far from the truth. I felt sick as I approached your door today, because I knew this would be your response. I was surprised when you questioned my intentions - asking if I was playing you. It wasn't the first time you've said it - it reveals a lot about what you think of me. This past weekend as I felt like my insides would explode - that was no game, all the time we've spent together was no game, my love for you is no game, the pain I've caused you and [her] is no game, but I can't seem to convince you otherwise. I'm sure today didn't help, so I'm sorry.

I know you don't like me saying it, but I understand your decision. I don't like it, but I understand it. I'll keep my distance.

Thoughts

How quickly things change. I felt so bad all weekend, very fearful and worried about you. Then this morning, I convinced myself I should feel good and hopeful. From your tone in your call last night, I thought I should feel hopeful.

What I'm after right now is regaining some of my self-respect. Setting myself up as your permanent mistress doesn't look like the best way to do that. I guess I don't understand why you and [him] not living together would mean that you would never see him, unless she threatened you with that, though you didn't say that, so I don't know. It doesn't matter. You've made your decision; like you said, you choose him, not me. I don't want to lose you, but I don't know what to do.

I feel like the typical stupid woman who keeps rationalizing, focusing on certain things, convincing herself that a man who is attached is going to leave those attachments for her -- but it never happens. How many times have we heard that story? I just can't compete. I guess everyone was right.

I don't know all the things going through your head. You've told me the minimum. But you didn't appear to be too upset by the prospect of my not being around today. For my part, I am very upset. My heart is broken. Again.

Probably it is best if we don't see each other for a while. I need some time to think. After tonight, I have to go live in that stupid apartment. I have to get used to being alone. I have to live with the reality.

Like I said, [they] are lucky that they have you. They should make the most of it.

RE: lunch

Hey sexy,

I'm so sorry I ruined your weekend. While I am lucky to have you thinking about me - please don't worry so much, it is beyond your control.

I can come over at noon, so I'll see you then. Give me a ring if that doesn't work.

See you soon.

lunch

I hope we can have lunch tomorrow. I have been so worried and upset all weekend. I can't say that I know exactly everything you're going through, but I do know it will work out. You need to remember that you are a good person.

I'll be going over to my apartment in the morning, so I'll be in your (work) neighborhood. Just let me know when and where, and I'll meet you or you can come over or whatever. I'm guessing around noon?

See you tomorrow.

Tough weekend

I guess I didn’t know what to expect when everything was laid on the table. It was much harder than I anticipated. Funny, I envisioned her hating me, but no – or not yet. I thought there would be some relief, but it doesn’t feel that way right now. This is hard to express, but my leaving feels like my abandoning [him]. I know it is weird, but I spend more time with him than [her]. It hasn’t been about her for a long time. [he] and I usually hang out when I (eventually) get home at night, mornings on the weekend and so forth. Even though he is not technically my son, I feel responsible for him. It is corny, but I don’t want to be my dad (or even Kenny) and turn my back on him. He’s said some things lately to make it even harder. Yeah, he’ll be out of school soon enough, so maybe that’ll help. I don’t know.

I’m staying at a motel tonight – don’t know about tomorrow. I just need some time by myself or it seems that way. I was going to call you earlier, but I know you had your dinner planned and it seemed better to not dump things on you. I’m okay, so don’t worry. I hope you’re having a good weekend. I’ll talk to you soon.

RE: Re: Happy Thursday

Oh, I'm so sorry I missed you. I just figured you were busy. I had left my cell phone home to charge, yeah my cell phone habits are bad.

Sure, just let me know where to meet you for lunch - noon is good.

I thought I could sleep but no luck. I'm sorry if I've been acting weird or different or whatever. I am a bit stressed. The Internet is funny, so much information - even on stress. Anyway, don't feel bad (if you do), because none of it is your fault. I'm always finding something to worry about.

I hope you're sleeping peacefully - I bet the dogs are happy to have you with them. I hope to see you soon.

Re: Re: Happy Thursday

Yeah, I was talking to [a co-worker] and tried to call you back but didn't get you.

Lunch is good, if you can make it. I'm not busy.

Re: Re: Happy Thursday

I left you a voice message. Anyway, I hope dinner was good. The sandwich can wait.

I went home, fell asleep, woke up, ate dinner and watched some sports with [him] and now I'm back at the office - checking to be certain things are running as planned. Oh well, I'm heading home again, so let me know about lunch tomorrow.

Of course, I love you too :)

Re: Happy Thursday

Hi,

I've been running around all day. I haven't eaten the sandwich yet, so I have that to look forward to.

I'm sorry you're not getting much rest. I know you're stressed out. I can have lunch tomorrow, if you want, or if you don't feel like it, let me know.

I'm meeting [her] at 6:00 for dinner, so I'll be done a little while after that. I'll give you a call. If you want to come over, that's cool, or if not, again, I understand. I love you.

Re: Happy Thursday

Hey,

I'm sorry I missed lunch. I've been holed up with a bunch of loons "discussing" things. I still didn't get much sleep last night, so I'm probably not the best company. How goes the packing? Did you eat the rest of your vegetable sandwich for lunch?

Tomorrow night [her] and I are going to talk about everything, so I won't be available. I'm not sure about your schedule, but maybe lunch.

Happy Thursday

Hi,

Still up for lunch today? What time is good for you? Where do you want to meet? Over at the apt, or somewhere else?

RE: Thanks!

Hey,

Your welcome, it was fun to see you in shopping mode.

Well, it turns out there wasn't much homework, he had other things planned. I'll fill you in tomorrow - or later today.

Yes, a couch always beats the floor ;)

Thanks!

Hi

Thank you for helping me with the TV. Couldn't have done it alone. :)

Good luck with your homework. High school is tough these days -- hope you're up to it.

Nice to sit on the couch again -- I gotta get one...

RE: Thank you

Hey there,

It is tough to sit on the sideline as you are going through so much, but I understand. I can't wait to talk to you.

Thank you

Thanks for your offers of help. I feel like I need to do what needs to be done myself. I have to get used to taking care of myself. Do you know what I mean? Plus, I'm not very good company right now. And I don't even think I know where we left things the last time we talked. My brain is pretty muddled. I suppose we can discuss that later. Well, I'm off to run more errands, etc. I'll talk to you soon. Take care.

RE: Checking

Yeah, I'm sure he knows better.

I know you're busy and completely stressed out, so I'm not sure what to do - as in when/if I can see you again. I guess you'll let me know.

RE: Checking

No, he can see that he needs to leave me alone.

RE: Checking

Yeah, a little late.

I hope [your boss] isn't pestering you (any more than usual).

RE: Checking

Yes.

Well, I wasn't pay much attention, so I guess so. Work is work, I didn't get here until 2:00, so it's just begun. Are you working?

RE: Checking

Yeah, it should be fine.

Oh, I'm sure it was good. I'm sorry to have missed it. How's work?

RE: Checking

Hey,

I know where that is located. It seems like a nice area, right?

I needed to do something so I did end up going, but I left at the intermission.

RE: Checking

Hi,
It is the apartments near your house. Yes, I'm stressed out.

Did you go to the show? Was it good?

RE: Checking

Oh, I'm sorry you had to go through that alone. I'd offer my help, but I guess I'm not supposed to - I dunno. Where is it? I know you are stressed out, but hang in there.

RE: Checking

Hi,

I guess I'm okay, considering. I rented an apartment today. I guess it will take a couple of days for the utilities to be turned on, but I can start moving my stuff in tomorrow. I'm trying to pack. It's been a very long, difficult weekend.

Hope you're doing well.

Checking

I'm not supposed to call you, so, well, I hope you are okay.

RE: Hey

You don't sound okay, but I'll take your word for it.

I'm sorry today didn't go so well. I'm sorry you won't be there tomorrow, disappointing, but I understand. If you're not going, I'm not sure I'll be there either. I wish I could help.

RE: Hey

Hi,

Yes, I'm doing okay. Sorry you had a long night.

I wasn't able to find an apt. today. Or one that I would be able to live in.
I'll have to look more tomorrow. I'm afraid I won't be able to go the show.
I don't want to miss it, but I really have to get this taken care of as soon as possible. If I can make it, I will let you know.

RE: Hey

Not a fun weekend, but I hope you're doing okay.

Last night didn't go so well when I got home (wanting to sleep) as I ended up tracking down the boy at 3:30 AM and then going back and forth with him. I guess these things happen as teenagers test the limits, but I'm worn out today.

Oh well, that's probably more than you wanted to know, but I wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you.

RE: Missed

I think you may need some toothbrush training.

RE: Missed

Yeah, I am doing okay. Aside from gagging myself sick with the toothbrush.

RE: Missed

I'm okay, you? Yeah, it was a bit late.

RE: Missed

How are you doing? Work late?

RE: Missed

How are you doing? Work late?

RE: Missed

That's good news :)

RE: Missed

Yes, I did rest and no, I didn't call her. I'm not that crazy. ;)

RE: Missed

I hope you were able to rest and you didn't call mom.

RE: Missed

Hi,

Yes, I am tired. Sleep hasn't been easy. This wine should help. I think I'll get good and sloshed and call mom. Ha. Ha.

Missed

I'm sorry, the work didn't go as planned so I was stuck upstairs a little longer than planned. I called a while back, but you're gone.

You sounded sleepy, hope you are able to get some type of rest. Oh well, I'll be here at work for a while.

RE: Hey

Ah, no reason, it's okay.

She may have suspected, but she didn't know anything. Or, maybe I'm wrong. What does 'for your sake' mean? Jesus, I guess she thinks highly of me.

Phone records? I guess I was right about watching my back? F'ing cell phones are so much trouble. I hope you don't keep old emails.

Well, I hope you are okay or as good as expected.

RE: Hey

You're drinking again? Why?

Well, I spoke to her. She said some interesting things. First of all, she said she knew before I even got it out. And she's known for a long time.

When I told her that I have no expectations with you, she said she really hoped so, for my sake. Anyway, apparently we are the talk of the town.

Hope you're not drinking now. Or at least not drinking and driving. What the hell was that all about? Where were you?

One other thing. Please don't call my cell phone for awhile. I think he may be looking at the phone records and that would just hurt him more.

RE: Hey

Well, I was thinking that. Yeah, it was nice to talk even if we didn't say much.

One thing, I was sick because I drank a bit last night. The bad part is I had been drinking when I was stopped by the police - but they didn't even ask.

RE: Hey

Stoppit, I wasn't thinking that at all. It was nice to talk to you for abit.

Hey

I'm sorry, I guess I didn't say the right thing on the phone. I'm sorry for everything going on. I guess tonight won't be much fun, but it'll keep you distracted for a bit.

RE: Okay

Sure, like I've said many times, you can call me.

RE: Okay

That's good news.

I'd like to tell you more, if you want to know. I guess getting together today is not likely. Could I call you?

RE:Okay

Thanks, I'm feeling better.

Hmm, you will be? That means you are not okay now (as you said). Hmm.

RE: Okay

Thanks, I'm feeling better.

Hmm, you will be? That means you are not okay now (as you said). Hmm.

RE: Okay

Oooo, sorry you were sick. Any better now? How are you feeling?

I'm okay -- or will be. Really.

RE: Okay

Well, I'm glad you are okay - or you are saying you are okay.

Sorry for the delayed response, I woke up sick in the middle of the night finally returned to sleep around nine and just woke up.

Okay

Hi,

I don't want to go into details in e-mail, but I am okay. Thanks for thinking of me and worrying, although I wish I could stop you from doing that. Talk soon?

RE: So....

Yep, see you there :)

RE: So....

Cajun place? Okay, 6 should work for me.

RE: So....

Hmm, that Cajun place near work? Does 6:00 work?

RE: So....

Yes, I think I could eat a little something. I can't think of a preference... you?

So....

Any idea or preference? I assume you are hungry??

Wow, your name in lights! It'll be the party of the year!

Fishing and no drinking? WTF!? Somebody's husband fishes like that - hmm, don't remember who. Oh yeah, it is serious business. A couple years ago I talked to a guy about building a site that provided fishing stats and so forth - Bass tour or bassmaster, something like that. People take that shit. :)

RE: Wowee

Whatever you say ;) Mono!? Lord, don't get my mind going, now I'll be worried.

Get some sleep, see you soon :)

I'm watching a program about this --http://www.portfolio.mvm.ed.ac.uk/studentwebs/session2/group12/georgie.htm

RE: Wowee

You are trying to trick me! I picked Saturday... Okay, you think on it. I guess I'll go sleep some more. I wonder if I have mono or something? Nah, probably not. :)

Can't wait to see you. :)

RE: Wowee

I guess it is better than working.

Yes, I should be free. Hmm, I thought I finally picked Saturday and the days before, but okay - let me think ;)

RE: Wowee

Yeah, he's way into the fishing. In the snow and everything.

Are you still free tomorrow? If so, I believe it is your turn to choose a meeting spot.

RE: Yuck

Ha, I was thinking that same thing as I trimmed away. I dunno, I just stopped when they looked right :)

RE: Wowee

Not rich! I guess I'll be getting a first-hand, up-close lesson from my friend in party planning.

I swear I don't remember saying anything like that, but I did? Hmm... I think it means they borrow this equipment from their church, but the church needed to use it this weekend. I dunno. They live out in the country with all their kin. They were a bit kooky. But the guy was talking about fishing, and how much he loves it. He enters tournaments and stuff. And he takes it very seriously -- no drinking. Just fishing. But he doesn't keep the fish! Only when he goes crappie fishing.

RE: Yuck

You're so industrious. How did you know when to stop when trimming the bushes?

RE: Yuck

Good :)

Well, I was under the house again, trimmed the bushes, and some other things.

RE: Wowee

Money and time and effort...

It seems the church had the fish fry equipment so it turned into a regular cookout. Or that is what I was told. Fried fish is good, but it makes my stomach hurt, so it may be a good thing.

RE: Yuck

I'm getting better. :)

That house should be pretty pristine by now, I'd think.

RE: Yuck

Oh, I'm sorry you're feeling bad, I hope you feel better soon.

The day has been okay - working around the house.

RE: Wowee

Quite an investment? Hmm, what does that mean, money, time ..?

No fish?? What kind of fish fry serves burgers?!?

Yuck

I have been sleeping pretty much all day. Don't know if it was the bonfire smoke that did it, or what, but I've felt terrible and lost my voice again.

Hopefully, all this rest will kick it.

I hope you are feeling okay and enjoying your day. I'll talk to you soon. :)

RE: Wowee

Yeah, I needed that nap.

I guess I'll be making quite an investment in this party. Not as rich as her, but we'll make it work. And, yes, I want a blowout too!

Hm, sounds like a good movie. The cookout was fine. No fish. Had a burger, watched some football and then a bonfire. It was nice and cool out so the fire felt good. I was so sleepy the whole time, even though I did sleep before that. :)

RE: Wowee

Hey there :)

You forgot something? I don't believe it! I guess She is planning a blowout party. Well, there better be something similar for your birthday!

Yes, this morning was great, you are too much. You feel so good and -as always - so beautiful.

I rolled through Wendy's when we left - yes, starving - and then headed over to the movie. It was or is a great movie - always the battle of good versus evil. A few errands after that and then asleep on the couch - so tired.

I hope you had a good nap and enjoyed the fish.

Talk to you soon :)

Wowee

Hi,

I hope you are soundly asleep right now. ;) I know I am sleepy. I ate at the restuarant with her, and this party is way bigger than I thought and I am more involved than I thought. Seems I forgot a conversation or something?

I don't doubt it, but I'm kind of lost now. I'll tell you more about it later.

This morning was too much fun. You always smell and feel and taste so delicious, better every time.

I'm going to go take a nap and think about you,

RE: Leaving

Uh, are you going to tell me where? :)))))

RE: Leaving

I thought you'd like that. ;)

Okey doke, I'll see you there. :)

RE: Leaving

You work too much ;)

Okay, 9:30 is fine. I guess that hotel name is made up, if not - okay :)

RE: I'm tired

I wasn't talking about you, so stoppit :) Yeah, I'm over here, coming over?

Well, you need to rest since you've been a bit sick - rest those vocal chords!!

RE: Leaving

Oh, good, you worked out some of your frustration. I worked til past 7, then kind of crashed.

Hm, would 9:30 work? At the Hotel du Love?

RE: Leaving

I can meet you early, just say where.

Not much game, I ended up cutting the grass, raking, etc. - the physical work was good :)

Leaving

Okay, I'm outta here - gonna go watch the game. I'll be able to relax since my team is not playing ;)

Let me know about tomorrow/Sunday/whenever.

You should leave soon too!!

RE: That was sweet

Thanks, you seem to know the right things to say :)

Yes, tomorrow and/or Sunday work for me. Since it is your turn (I picked twice and even brought you lunch ;o )

RE: That was sweet

I'm glad you feel better. :) It'll pass (the work). You've wanted to be done with it for awhile, so maybe this is the way to do it? I know it's irritating to think that people are blaming you for things that are being called wrong. It's easy to do that when you are not there and not an employee. I know you've worked so hard on that project.

I'm not so busy. Would you be able to get together Saturday morning/afternoon or Sunday morning/afternoon? I need to come out that way to stop in at [a friend's house] to help her plan this party and we could hang out too, maybe, if you want? Let me know which day would be better.

RE: That was sweet

Hey, I was just sending you a message :)

No, thank you so much for hanging out with me. Yes, [they] pushed my buttons this morning. I feel like I've failed. I know I take it too personal, but I put a lot of time and effort into the project. Then, I feel like it is wrong to blame others when I probably could've done a better job or whatever. At this point, I'm through - I'll send the note to end my involvement later (want to make sure I'm calm and coherent first) and be done with it.

Anyway, you made me feel so much better and my co-workers thank you! Plus, I knew you were hungry!

I'll leave in a bit. I guess you'll be busy all weekend, so I'm glad to see you today.

That was sweet

Thanks for bringing me lunch and hanging out with me. I feel so much better. :)

I hope you do too. I know you're frustrated with [them]. Can you leave early? Take some time for yourself, do nothing?

RE: Shaky

Yes, you need your rest (and food)! I hope you sleep well and stay warm.

It is always great to see you. Always.

Yes, talk to you tomorrow (or later today) :)

RE: Shaky

Okay, I'll try not to ask these questions any more. Or at least for awhile. I have thoroughly worn myself out, so I need to go to bed.

I'm glad I got to see you today.

Get some rest and I'll talk to you tomorrow. Good night. :)

RE: Shaky

Well, every family is different (aren't I smart). After so long, it is hard to get going again with everybody having their own lives. Funny, I stay in contact with lots of people in my family, but I rarely tell them much about what is going on with me. That is a family trait - we hold things in and don't reveal a lot. I can't explain that one.

Well, I feel bad or odd when I don't have an answer. I feel like I am supposed to have clear answers or solutions or have a clue what is going on. A lot of times I hold things in as I try to figure them out (do it a lot with work) and I'll talk when I think I have an answer. Yeah, I know, that is wrong. These days, I'm not sure about the her situation. I have no clue what to do or say about it, as it percolates in my skull.

I'm not sure about being smart, a lot of times I think too much.

RE: Shaky

You shouldn't think of it as a weakness. If there's a weakness, it's the way my family has drifted apart and will probably remain that way. Living so far away from one another makes it easier to do, but if we really wanted to be a close family, we could be. But most of us don't want that. It's too painful.

And it's gone on that way for so long, it won't change, I don't think.

Yes, it can be hard to get you to talk about certain topics, especially lately. You used to, but not now. I was interpreting that as part of the "it is what it is and no more," but I'm probably wrong, as usual. I just needed to let you know that I'm scared because it's such a relief to have you close
to me. I can breathe again. But it also feels terrible because I'm married. And you have her. And I guess it's going to stay that way. And if I lose you again, I don't know if I can handle it.

I know you're always thinking. That's what I love about you. You're too damned smart.

RE: Shaky

As you know, sticking with my family is one of my weaknesses. Everybody else has cut him loose but me. I can't explain why I hang around. It's like the family gathering last week. I see a lot of them at least a few times a year - cousin works up the road, so I stop by occasionally; I try to talk to my brother from time to time; I visit my aunts and uncles, etc..

No, I didn't mean that at all. I just meant that you've seen me at or close to my lowest. It embarrasses me. I don't want to lose you, but I'm having trouble figuring everything out. I love being with you. I hope you know that.

One thing - and a big thing - I am not accustomed to being so open and sharing with another person. My family doesn't talk about real things and feelings very often. Funny, because I'm usually the one to confront other family members and ask questions etc. Anyway, like I said, I'm not always trying to hide things, I just am not used to sharing what I'm thinking and so forth. I'll gladly answer any questions - as I hope I do. I hope that makes some sense.

Oh, and yes, there are always a million things going through my mind. I'm constantly thinking whether it's work, you, family, the team, or whatever.

RE: Shaky

It's good that you know both the positive and negative in him. And you have a relationship with him.

I love you too. Don't you know that? That's why I spend time with you. I want to spend more time with you, but I don't get to do that. I get the feeling there are a million things you just are not going to tell me and there are no promises. So I'm right to fear losing your love again? Is that what you mean? It's going to happen again.

RE: Shaky

Well, I don't always mention them, but he has some good qualities. Also, he is a bit of an asshole which I definitely have some of that in me. He is a loner, always worked too much, caustic sense of humor, says what he is thinking (to strangers/co-workers but not family), and some more I can't think of. He was always good with his hands and taught me many things about fixing this and that as well as figuring out things. If I ever gave my life over to alcohol, I'd probably end up like him - but that will never happen.

On the other hand, he's hurt a lot of people which I don't really think is in me, and we are worlds apart in terms of education and intelligence.

I love you, plain and simple. I can't believe you still spend time with me after the "other stuff." I have my problems and I hope I've laid those (or most of them) out for you.I know what you mean, sometimes I don't ask things because I don't want to know.

RE: Shaky

I didn't call you him. I don't know him. I just was interested in whether you meant what you wrote about how you wouldn't resist thinking that you were like him any more. And, of course, from some things that you've told me about him, that scares me. I'm scared. I don't know why you're giving me all this wonderful attention and love exactly. I mean, after the other stuff. I'm scared to lose it again. And I'm scared to ask you these questions and get the answers.

RE: Shaky

Re-energized!! :)

No, I like to talk - especially to you. I'm not the most forthcoming, so please ask any and everything on your mind. Again, I love talking to you.

On the dad issue, I know I'm confusing. While I say I'm very much like him, somebody calling me him carries a lot of baggage. Yeah, that doesn't make sense. It is an onion, the more you peel off its layers - the more it stinks.

Stay warm!!

RE: Shaky

I'm fed now. :)

Just a question from something you wrote. You really don't want to talk about anything do you? It just is what it is?

It's cold out there.

RE: Shaky

Well, I could've easily fed you something - I should not have believed you earlier when you said you were not hungry. You need to eat!

I guess I took it more as an observation. I am very much like him. Of course, there are differences, but a lot the same. I'm not sure it is all bad, just the way it is.

No problems, gonna be cold tonight so no a/c.

RE: Shaky

The food thing wasn't your fault. And I'm sorry about that question. Please don't say maybe I'm right. I know there's no point in asking questions like that now, but I'm a girl and sometimes I can't help it.

I hope everything went okay tonight.

RE: Shaky

I felt so bad leaving you, I should've got you some food. I'm sorry. And, I must admit, you shocked me with the dad comment/question. Maybe you're right.

I'm glad you're feeling better.

Shaky

Nice to see you, as always. Sorry I pooped out on you tonight. I really started feeling bad and shaky after not eating for too long and I didn't want to get all moody or emotional on you.

I've had some food now and I'm feeling better. Don't forget to blog about what was said to you. ;)

You

I want you - feel you, touch you, taste you, smell you on my hands, hold you, mmm :)

RE: RE: I'm tired

Can't wait :)

Sleep tight sexy lady.

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OK, OK, OK! I'll sleep on it and let you know...

I think I'll try to sleep now and you need to, too. Sweet dreams. :)

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Yes, yes and YES. Oh, I picked August Moon so it looks like you're in the batter's box!

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Ok, so maybe we'll meet? Is that what we're saying?

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I don't have any plans. Not doing anything. Are you working a full day? Or not, since you're there now, and were there last night?

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Well, I know working, but after that?

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I'll make an adjustment.

Working. You?

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Uh, not so hard! ;)

What are you doing tomorrow?

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Vroom Vroom! Let's go, baby!

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I thought you were going to call it your handlebar :)

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I'll try it. And it must be super delicious!

Aha, good to know. And I was going to call it the captain. That would have been wrong.

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Yeah, but maybe you should switch to that toothpaste since you love peanuts - it may stop the gagging.

That McSweeney's is crazy. Mine is The General.

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:)

Wow, the one about the possible peanut oil in the toothpaste is scary. Those allergies are very serious. Those lying marketers!

http://www.mcsweeneys.net/links/lists/28AdamWasson.html

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Yeah, that is true.

Oh, that tickles :)

Here's a sight for ya - http://www.mouseprint.org/

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Oh. You've had a crazy schedule this week. That's part of why you're tired!

Let me whisper in your ear. ;)

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I left for a bit and came back, everybody is long gone. I make sure the shit runs tonight and I can sleep late tomorrow.

Always!!

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That is a looooong day. Is a crew there with you or are you alone?

I'll remember that. :)

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I have to wait to 11:00 - a certain process.

Your voice is always sexy :)

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Oh, I thought you were leaving. I guess not yet.

I should have called you before my voice came back so I could talk all sexy to you.

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I'm at work, so that'll be hard, but I will -> > >eventually :)

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I'm okay, yes. :) Go to bed. Go to sleep!

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You suppose? Hm, you okay?

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Well, that is something, I suppose. I try.

You make me smile too. Sorry you're feeling so tired. You should go to bed earlier tonight. Okay?

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Well, sometimes everything and everyone bothers me, but you make me smile and it goes away.

I always feel like I should be able to fix things. I'm leaving soon.

I'm not a big Breakfast Club fan, so I don't remember :/

RE: I'm tired

Sometimes I bother you. ;) Don't take everything so seriously; just say F it. It's okay to do that.

It's from the Breakfast Club. He's failing shop, remember?

How long are you going to have to work?

RE: I'm tired

I wear myself out, take things too serious ;) Oh, you never bother me.

What's that quote, am I supposed to recognize it?

RE: I'm tired

Yeah. I suppose I have. Sorry if I've asked for too much. Are you still at work?

It's okay. Nothing going on.

RE: I'm tired

Okay. :) What's wearing you out? Well, I won't bother you while you're working.

I'm feeling ok. And the Breakfast Club is on, so I'm all set for an exciting night. "My light didn't go on."

I'm tired

I’m not physically tired, but my mind is exhausted. You ever have one of those days (or weeks) where it feels like people only want something from you? Just take, take, and more take?

How’s your evening?

RE: Hot out there

Yes, very hot, turn that sucker on!! Hmm, is this Indian Summer?

I'm okay. No, not your voice! Well, at least you have IM :) Get some rest.

Hot out there

Geez, what's with the heat? I don't want to turn the air on in October.

How are you doing? I'm feeling a bit less tired, but my voice is going. Not sure why. I'm sure everyone will be glad if I can't talk. ;)

RE: Great dinner

I liked teaching the training classes, but only every now and then - I could never do it on a daily basis.

Hopefully the trip will go well.

Ah, it's only a football game, there are always more and more and more ... plus, I have my priorities ;)

I hope you sleep well. I'll talk to you tomorrow.

RE: Great dinner

I'm getting more patient (yes, really, I am!) but tonight was trying. I'm not cut out to be a teacher. I should have slapped that grill out of that guy's mouth.

I am promptness when I am meeting you. ;)

Have fun on your day trip. I know you will.

I am very impressed that you missed the Eagles to hang out with me. You are sweet. We could have gone somewhere to watch the game, you know... I can't believe I even had that thought, but I did. I must really be more patient.
;)

I think I'll try to go to sleep now. Thanks for making my day. I'll talk to you tomorrow. :)

RE: Great dinner

Yes, I'm surprised you have made it this long with your legendary impatience! I just appreciate your promptness with arriving at [the restaurant] :)

I talked to [her], so I'll be going - around 10 AM.

Oh, and you know, I opted to spend dinner with you as my [team] was playing on [tv], are you impressed?

Great dinner

:)

Thanks for calling -- you saved me right when I was about to become rude, and that wouldn't have been good for the students. You know how impatient I can be. It was a welcome surprise. And dinner and hanging out with you is always the best part of my day. You make me laugh. :)

You should definitely go on the little trip with your [family] tomorrow; you'll have a good time. And you can bond. And you can get away from work! It's win-win.

RE: Fabulous

You're so smart.

I thought so, but I'm running out of steam.

You better get some sleep. I think I'll get some myself, g'night :)

RE: Fabulous

Kind of reminds me of All About Eve. Battle between the older stage actress and the young, ambitious ingenue.

You'll keep up. I have faith in you.

RE: Fabulous

Yeah, I saw part of that, it looked okay.

Nah, let it wait until tomorrow. I have work to do, but I have no freaking clue. Ugh, things are starting to fall off my plate.

RE: Fabulous

Hm, I could be working. I've got an idea for my work percolating in my brain, god help me. Maybe I should get started on that.

RE: His girlfriend

I thought you would like that.

RE: Your show is on

I am quite serious. Not sure what happened :/

RE: Fabulous

No work to keep you busy? ;)

RE: His girlfriend

That is a good feeling. :)

RE: Your show is on

Are you serious? Are you hallucinating? Did you spill Coke on it?

RE: Fabulous

I'm more energized than tired.

Being Julia with Annette Bening is pretty good.

RE: Your show is on

Why are there ants coming out of my laptop - in and around it. I've killed quite a few, weird.

His girlfriend

Dexter's girlfriend, he says it is a match made in heaven - he found somebody as f'ed up as himself.

RE: Fabulous

Dexter works with the police too, only an hour though.

Yeah, I'm beat, but have to get some of this stuff done. You tired?

RE: Your show is on

I think so. I was looking at the mysteries and thrillers at Borders today because I think I need to read more of those these days. I'm tired of all these literary books I've been reading. ;) I like a good mystery or serial killer.

RE: Your show is on

Oh, that may be a book for you :)

RE: Fabulous

Mm.

Yes, it's good. The lead character is a psychologist who works with the police. The shows are two hours long, though, so it takes awhile to get through one. Well, about two hours. ;)

Yeah, I noticed that. You should go to sleep.

RE: Your show is on

Thank you. I see it's based on a book:

http://www.sho.com/site/dexter/book.do

RE: Fabulous

:)

Oh, I've never seen Wire in the Blood, good?

Yeah, trying, but I'm kind of worn out.

RE: Your show is on

I'll try to tape it for you (yes, actual VCR tape).

RE: Your show is on

Ooooo, sounds perfect!

RE: Fabulous

Oh, it's no joke. ;)

I've been watching creepy stuff. Wire in the Blood from BBC and Law and Order.

You been working?

RE: Your show is on

God, it is creepy, this may give me bad dreams :/

RE: Fabulous

Fit you? Is that a joke? ;)

You been reading?

RE: Fabulous

Okay, I'm telling you, you fit me perfectly. :)

RE: Your show is on

Crap, still don't have that channel. Is it worth ten bucks a month more?

Your show is on

Dexter

RE: Area 25

Geez, thanks, this sounds like a plan.

RE: Fabulous

No, you can tell me.

It was a great time. I love you too :))))

Fabulous

I can't tell you how much I enjoyed myself this afternoon with you.

I love holding you and watching your face, making you laugh and cry out. You are too cute when you act nervous and shy, but it is my mission to make you stop being nervous. :) Is it strange that I feel so comfortable with you seeing me lose control? It just feels natural to me. I love you,

Area 25

Have any of your doctors ever talked to you about area 25? I was watching 60 minutes and they were talking about how some people with "treatment-resistent depression" were trying surgery in this area of the brain and it was working.

RE: Bah

Okay, I'll give you a call later. :)

Nope, didn't hear from her. Guess I'll have to tell her about us later. And doesn't she want her birthday present? She doesn't know what she's missing!

That's great that you had a good time. I want to hear all about it.

I did have a relaxing day. Little bit frustrating, though. I was reading and I just couldn't concentrate. I have no attention span any more. Even though I liked the book, I'd read a page or two, then have to jump up and go do something else, then come back, then put it down....all day.

Talk to you soon,

RE: Bah

Yeah, not a good day for the Hawks - oh well, tough to be #1.

Maybe we can get together afterwards? I'm supposed to be there at noon, not sure how long it'll take I'm thinking four hours or so. Give me a ring in the afternoon.

The family gathering turned out to be lots of fun. It was great to see everybody. I quickly fixed the situation and everybody kept their mouth shut. Lots of laughs :)

No get together with your pal? You have a nice relaxing day?

Talk to you soon.