RE: Shaky

As you know, sticking with my family is one of my weaknesses. Everybody else has cut him loose but me. I can't explain why I hang around. It's like the family gathering last week. I see a lot of them at least a few times a year - cousin works up the road, so I stop by occasionally; I try to talk to my brother from time to time; I visit my aunts and uncles, etc..

No, I didn't mean that at all. I just meant that you've seen me at or close to my lowest. It embarrasses me. I don't want to lose you, but I'm having trouble figuring everything out. I love being with you. I hope you know that.

One thing - and a big thing - I am not accustomed to being so open and sharing with another person. My family doesn't talk about real things and feelings very often. Funny, because I'm usually the one to confront other family members and ask questions etc. Anyway, like I said, I'm not always trying to hide things, I just am not used to sharing what I'm thinking and so forth. I'll gladly answer any questions - as I hope I do. I hope that makes some sense.

Oh, and yes, there are always a million things going through my mind. I'm constantly thinking whether it's work, you, family, the team, or whatever.