RE: Checking

Hi,

I guess I'm okay, considering. I rented an apartment today. I guess it will take a couple of days for the utilities to be turned on, but I can start moving my stuff in tomorrow. I'm trying to pack. It's been a very long, difficult weekend.

Hope you're doing well.

RE: And so

I've caused you too much pain and trouble - I'm sorry. I've never regretted loving you, but I do regret getting you to feel the same about me. You deserve so much more. Don't hesitate to call on me if you ever need anything.

And so

It's best if we don't see each other, at least for a long, long time. Apparently, you get something positive out of it, but I don't, not at this point. I don't want to be hurt by you any more. It's time that I think of and take care of myself.

As long as you're around confusing and manipulating me, I won't be able to move on. I'm single now, and I want to be open to someone who will treat me with love and respect, and want to be treated with love and respect by me. Who will want me to be who I am, and not hide my love or debase myself.

I know that you don't need me, and you will be fine. You should be concentrating on your family, anyway.

I'm not sorry that I love you, but I'm sorry that it came to this

RE: Hm

I was worried about you since you had been so depressed after our conversation the other night, so I was glad you kept your doctor appointment. You appeared to be in a better mood, but I seem to upset you every time we see each other or maybe confuse is the better term. I know it is hard, so maybe being friends won't work. No, I'm not simply dismissing our relationship. I don't really know, but I know it is kind of awkward when we're together. I realize that any type of intimacy between us will cause more problems. I wish I could explain my behavior, my issues, and all my stupidity, but I can't. Maybe spending more time and money with a shrink will help, but that is not likely. I've been like this forever, so how can I expect a change now? Funny, I was in a situation all these years that allowed or lived with my isolation. Oh well, as you said, what's done is done.

I have no answer to your question concerning how I am nice and loving one moment while cold and restrained another. I don't know, but I recognize the behavior as I reflect on my life. My outburst and quitting at work yesterday is another example (that has happened countless times) where a lot was asked of me and my response to the pressure was to cut and run. I'm rambling again ...

Hm

I don't know if I know how to make this friends thing work. I couldn't understand how you could tell me you wanted to be with me and then disappear, come back, and tell me you didn't need me and didn't want me to love you and then want us to be pals. Then you tell me the plan is still for you to split -- but then when I said, but you said you don't want me then, either, you confirmed that that was the case (why bring it up then?). Or how you can tell me you love me and think all these wonderful things about me but don't want me. Or how you can just turn it off and be my buddy so quickly. Plus, of course, I remember all the other times you did that and then came back to me. I can't even remember how many times that has happened. I just cannot understand any of it. I cannot.

I want to be there for you, I do, just like I always have been, because even though you say you don't, I still think you need me. But you have to know that it is so fucking hard for me. So fucking hard. I never know what to think. I never know what to do. I never know what to say. You clearly don't want me talking about my feelings or asking questions and I don't know how that works. Please tell me how you do it because I don't know how.

RE: Thanks

I once took five pills a day - okay, we're not competing. Hmm, the Ambien is good but it is the same pill that preceded two police cars and the EMS at my house.

A cashier at Thornton's told me she coughed a lot because her doctor said she had a chronic drip in her throat. Thanks for sharing.

I just received your voice message a little while ago. How was dinner at [her] house? I hope you're sleeping, so I'll call you tomorrow.

RE: Thanks

Oh, did you switch over? Ambien is good, it helps me sleep. I've been sleeping (without Ambien's help) off and on all day - can't seem to shake this.

RE: Thanks

Well, it seems like I've made you cry way too much lately.

No, your smile is special.

I hope you kept your doctor appointment and it went well, did it?

RE: Thanks

Oh, did you switch over? Ambien is good, it helps me sleep. I've been sleeping (without Ambien's help) off and on all day - can't seem to shake this.

RE: Thanks

Yes, I went. He wants me to switch to Effexor. And he finally gave me some Ambien. He didn't want to give me anything for sleep, but I said I had waited long enough. So we'll see.

RE: Thanks

Yes, I went. He wants me to switch to Effexor. And he finally gave me some Ambien. He didn't want to give me anything for sleep, but I said I had waited long enough. So we'll see.

RE: Another thing

Silly, who would've locked the door if you fell asleep? (that's a joke)

RE: Thanks

Well, it seems like I've made you cry way too much lately.

No, your smile is special.

I hope you kept your doctor appointment and it went well, did it?

Another thing

And, I think about you all the time, about touching you and you touching me. Kissing, especially. When you hug me, I relax, even now. I'm not used to not getting hugs from you (or anyone, since nobody's around). Last night, when you asked me if I needed anything, what I wanted to ask you for was for you to rub my back until I could maybe fall asleep, but I was afraid.

RE: Thanks

You sure know how to make a girl cry. Please try to go to that appointment. I know it's hard. If you could tell me about it tonight, you can go. It'll be alright.

Right before you called tonight, I was talking to [her] about her similar situation and she was asking for advice. Except it's not really similar.

And I can't give anyone advice. My relationship with you is so deep, I was unprepared for it. I thought I knew my own heart and mind and what it meant to be connected to another, but I didn't. I never saw it coming, but once it made itself known, it was forever. What you feel, I feel. I know that's not literally true, and I don't know what it's like to have the shadow that you have over you all the time. But on another level, it is true. When you came in tonight, and several times after that, you had a real, genuine little smile on your face. That is rare. It was surprising, but I couldn't look away. I like to see you smile.

Sometimes I get so overwhelmingly angry with you. But it doesn't last because above it all, I just love you.

RE: Thanks

You sure know how to make a girl cry. Please try to go to that appointment. I know it's hard. If you could tell me about it tonight, you can go. It'll be alright.

Right before you called tonight, I was talking to a friend about her similar situation and she was asking for advice. Except it's not really similar.

And, I can't give anyone advice. My relationship with you is so deep, I was unprepared for it. I thought I knew my own heart and mind and what it meant to be connected to another, but I didn't. I never saw it coming, but once it made itself known, it was forever. What you feel, I feel. I know that's not literally true, and I don't know what it's like to have the shadow that you have over you all the time. But on another level, it is true. When you came in tonight, and several times after that, you had a real, genuine little smile on your face. That is rare. It was surprising, but I couldn't look away. I like to see you smile.

Sometimes I get so overwhelmingly angry with you. But it doesn't last because above it all, I just love you.

RE: Thanks

Hey there,

Believe it or not and as I've said, I want to help you any way - big >or small. I know how nice a tasty candy bar can be at the right time. You can call me anytime.

It hurts to see your tears. I know you are going through hell at the moment, but you are strong along with smart and sexy, so you'll come through it in great shape. While I do worry about you, it is always with the knowledge that you'll do well. You are an original. I'm glad you told me about - and are going to - tomorrow's doctor appointment. Speak up and let him know what is happening. They only want to help you. Also, you can make their day by flashing your beautiful smile their way :) If you need to talk, give me a call after the appointment.

It is weird, but it took every ounce of energy I had to tell you about my plans with the shrink next week. I'm not sure if I'll follow through, but it seems like a good idea. I've counted and there have been 7 or so therapists, 3 shrinks, and more doctors over the past 17 or so years, and nothing has ever addressed the issue. It is a hard one to describe - a lingering pain that can momentarily vanish at times but is always casting its shadow in the background. The harder part (when trying to explain) is it is not a physical pain - only mental/emotional. I've tried countless medications with varying results, read lots and lots of material and ventured into alternative routes. My final conclusion was acceptance by learning to live with the creature, but this won't end well. If I had a wish it would be to spend a day or days without worry or fear - relax. Now, I've had such moments with you. I can remember sitting with you in the pizza place discussing anything>and everything - those few hours were exhilarating. Talking with you always left me better. It's sad that those times are gone - I've ruined that connection. Also, in the park with your cervix story that made me genuinely laugh and continue to laugh - too funny as you told it matter-of-factly. And, making love, your touch on my body, the kisses, those eyes, those are calming moments I often wish for. I think and I think a lot, these are brief moments that I cherish, but they can't negate the overwhelming despair that blankets me much of the time. I play the good game to convince people otherwise, but it is there, it is always waiting to be alone with me.

I can and have fought with it, but in the end you just tire out and accept it. I guess I'm a bit scientific, because I've always tried to formulate an acceptable cause-and-effect relationship for the feelings, but the majority of the time there is no cause - it just affects.

I'm sorry, I've rambled - probably beyond comprehension. Nobody can ever truly know what is ailing another person, but we can try to relate by listening and talking. On the other hand, I do think I really do understand your current feelings, but they are only temporary as you'll come out it as a better woman (if that is possible). I always have faith in you (just not anybody else).

I'll always love you.

Thanks

for the chocolate. I sure wasn't expecting to see you today, or any time, I guess. I do want to say that I think it's a very good idea for you to go discuss things with that shrink. It can't hurt (much) and it could help a lot. You shouldn't be in pain all the time. It's no way to live.

Thanks

for the chocolate. I sure wasn't expecting to see you today, or any time, I guess. I do want to say that I think it's a very good idea for you to go discuss things with that shrink. It can't hurt (much) and it could help a lot. You shouldn't be in pain all the time. It's no way to live.

RE: Thanks

Hey there,

Believe it or not and as I've said, I want to help you any way - big or small. I know how nice a tasty candy bar can be at the right time. You can call me anytime.

It hurts to see your tears. I know you are going through hell at the moment, but you are strong along with smart and sexy, so you'll come through it in great shape. While I do worry about you, it is always with the knowledge that you'll do well. You are an original. I'm glad you told me about - and are going to - tomorrow's doctor appointment. Speak up and let him know what is happening. They only want to help you. Also, you can >make their day by flashing your beautiful smile their way :) If you need to talk, give me a call after the appointment.

It is weird, but it took every ounce of energy I had to tell you about my plans with the shrink next week. I'm not sure if I'll follow through, but it seems like a good idea. I've counted and there have been 7 or so therapists,3 shrinks, and more doctors over the past 17 or so years, and nothing has ever addressed the issue. It is a hard one to describe - a lingering pain that can momentarily vanish at times but is always casting its shadow in the background. The harder part (when trying to explain) is it is not a physical pain - only mental/emotional. I've tried countless medications with varying results, read lots and lots of material and ventured into alternative routes. My final conclusion was acceptance by learning to live with the creature, but this won't end well. If I had a wish it would be to spend a day or days without worry or fear - relax. Now, I've had such moments with you. I can remember sitting with you in Clifton's Pizza discussing anything and everything - those few hours were exhilarating. Talking with you always left me better. It's sad that those times are gone - I've ruined that connection. Also, in the park with your cervix story that made me genuinely laugh and continue to laugh - too funny as you told it matter-of-factly. And, making love, your touch on my body, the kisses, those eyes, those
are calming moments I often wish for. I think and I think a lot, these are brief moments that I cherish, but they can't negate the overwhelming despair that blankets me much of the time. I play the good game to convince people otherwise, but it is there, it is always waiting to be alone with me.

I can and have fought with it, but in the end you just tire out and accept it. I guess I'm a bit scientific, because I've always tried to formulate an acceptable cause-and-effect relationship for the feelings, but the majority of the time there is no cause - it just affects.

I'm sorry, I've rambled - probably beyond comprehension. Nobody can ever truly know what is ailing another person, but we can try to relate by listening and talking. On the other hand, I do think I really do understand your current feelings, but they are only temporary as you'll come out it as a better woman (if that is possible). I always have faith in you (just not anybody else).

I'll always love you.

Rest

I apologize for my previous email - of course you are stressed out and it seems like your trip provided no relief. I’m sure your grandmother was grateful for the visit. My grandma always had words of wisdom for me, so I hope yours was just as valuable. I’m glad you made it home safe.

Hope you sing with all your heart

I assume you don’t have a computer or the laptop during your sojourn Well, anyway, I was wondering if you wow’d the others with your singers (the karaoke must’ve helped). I hope your time with familyis great – stress free.

Thanks

I know I ask too much of you, but it was so great to spend time with you tonight. I hope you were able to finally eat something and get some sleep as well.

I can never fully explain my behavior and using something like depression as an excuse is not acceptable. I wish I could provide something more creative than endless apologies. I know dealing with me is no fun. Believe it or not, I do love you. One other thing, I didn’t mean to insult you with my blog posts, I’m a moron. I have the feeling that you probably won’t want to see me again. This is something that I do fully understand, but do please call me when you arrive.

RE: You need to eat

I don't have any appetite and my stomach is upset. Anyway, you forgot the wine.

RE: You need to eat

I don't have any appetite and my stomach is upset. Anyway, you forgot the wine.

You need to eat

I know I'm the last person you want to hear from, but four cookies and a bowl of cereal does not meet the FDA guidelines for a balanced diet. You need to eat. What about a peanut butter sandwich? Peanut butter and crackers? Turkey sandwich? Spam? Foie gras on crackers? Or, one of those KFC bowls?

Safe trip

I assume you’re still planning on Thanksgiving in with family. I’m not sure when you are leaving, but be careful and have a safe trip.

RE: Your DVD

Ah, don't worry about it. You need to watch it because it is funny - DVD players are cheap. I can get it whenever.

I'm surviving. I know there have been better times, so I hope you're hanging in there.

Your DVD

I have your DVD (never got to watch it, still haven't gotten a DVD player yet). Don't think I have anything else of yours, but I can look. Anyway, I'm sure you would like it back, so I can mail it to you or get it to you however you want.

Hope you are okay,

RE: Please

Hey, I'm okay, I hope everything is okay with you. I thought the week of isolation would be good, but not really.

I'm heading to Frankfort in a minute - volunteer work. Maybe we can talk later or whenever you're available. I'll be busy at Mom's house on Sunday as well. Oh well, give me a call.

Please

Would you please let me know if you are alright? Please.

RE: hey

It has been a long day. I did go to the appointment. I'm a person that holds everything in until I (seemingly) can't hold any more, so it was good to talk to someone. Of course we talked about everything going on along with family and other history. I'm supposed to go back next week. She suggested I take a step back from everything - take some time to collect my thoughts. I'm not sure about that, and I know you don't agree.

How are you doing? I hope everything is okay.

hey

How are you doing? Did you go to the appointment? Oh well, I was thinking about you and hoping you are alright.

So cold

Wow, a cold night and a fun game. You’ll need that extra blanket. Hope your night was good.

RE: You need to eat

I didn't know you were whining, oh, the bottle of wine. Hmm, that may be better if you eat something with it. You gotta force something down, how about one of your favorite sandwiches?

RE: Hey

Yeah, and you've been through the same things. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger? Mom wasn't home tonight, but I did doze for a while until the teenager thought it necessary to give me the details of his day.

How was Costco? Did you eat some good food? The rain seemed to dampen the trick-or-treater turnout.

I hope you're sleeping and the bed is probably great - much better than an air mattress or carpet!

Maybe we can talk tomorrow after work. Talk to you soon.

RE: Hey

I know you are totally wiped out. It's been an insane couple of weeks or so.

It's not easy to think when you're so tired, and everybody, including me, bitching at you doesn't help. I hope you can get some rest -- maybe you got those sleeping pills from mom?

My day was okay. I bought some crap, put some crap away, that sort of thing. I'm going to go back to [her house] for a bit and hand out candy. Then I'll head over to my apartment. Hope that bed is comfortable.

I miss you already and want to talk, when we have a chance. Or just sit and not talk. I don't know.

Take care.

RE: Hey

I'm sorry for being a dick last night (and all other times). You were right a while back when you said "this is real." It doesn't get any more real than this. I know you're going through the same shit, but I'm not sure about the whole thing. You were right last night when you said the arrangement at my house is going to be awkward/bad. And, expecting you to sit on the sidelines may be insane. I just know it will - as it has been - be unacceptable for you and why would it be? I just envision more fights and arguments with any and everybody. I dunno, maybe I'm wrong. I know you're tired and stressed - I am exhausted, I feel like I've been in a fight - and lost badly. I'm going to leave shortly and >crawl into a quiet corner and close my eyes. Well, we can talk more later.

I hope your day was good as expected.

Hey

I know I can be a real bitch and I'm sorry for the hurtful things I said.

None of this is easy for anyone. There is nothing that will make everyone happy. I know I can't have everything I want -- that's life. I love you and trust you and I want to make it work.

In a little while, I'm going to go meet [a friend] and hang out on my last day off work and try to act like a normal human being. I hope your day goes okay.

You know if you need anything, you can lean on your office mate. ;)

RE: Thoughts

You are far from the typical woman or any woman I've ever known. I've said a lot, but I guess I've done a bad job detailing my relationship with [him]. Maybe I'm wrong about the whole thing. I know how I felt when my dad left us, and I just don't want him feeling that way about me - not yet. It isn't the typical father/son scenario - things would change drastically with a split. No, she didn't use him against me.

I'm sorry, I'm not the best at expressing my emotions, so my reactions never seem to match your expectations, but you're wrong about my not being upset about your absence - that is far from the truth. I felt sick as I approached your door today, because I knew this would be your response. I was surprised when you questioned my intentions - asking if I was playing you. It wasn't the first time you've said it - it reveals a lot about what you think of me. This past weekend as I felt like my insides would explode - that was no game, all the time we've spent together was no game, my love for you is no game, the pain I've caused you and [her] is no game, but I can't seem to convince you otherwise. I'm sure today didn't help, so I'm sorry.

I know you don't like me saying it, but I understand your decision. I don't like it, but I understand it. I'll keep my distance.

Thoughts

How quickly things change. I felt so bad all weekend, very fearful and worried about you. Then this morning, I convinced myself I should feel good and hopeful. From your tone in your call last night, I thought I should feel hopeful.

What I'm after right now is regaining some of my self-respect. Setting myself up as your permanent mistress doesn't look like the best way to do that. I guess I don't understand why you and [him] not living together would mean that you would never see him, unless she threatened you with that, though you didn't say that, so I don't know. It doesn't matter. You've made your decision; like you said, you choose him, not me. I don't want to lose you, but I don't know what to do.

I feel like the typical stupid woman who keeps rationalizing, focusing on certain things, convincing herself that a man who is attached is going to leave those attachments for her -- but it never happens. How many times have we heard that story? I just can't compete. I guess everyone was right.

I don't know all the things going through your head. You've told me the minimum. But you didn't appear to be too upset by the prospect of my not being around today. For my part, I am very upset. My heart is broken. Again.

Probably it is best if we don't see each other for a while. I need some time to think. After tonight, I have to go live in that stupid apartment. I have to get used to being alone. I have to live with the reality.

Like I said, [they] are lucky that they have you. They should make the most of it.

RE: lunch

Hey sexy,

I'm so sorry I ruined your weekend. While I am lucky to have you thinking about me - please don't worry so much, it is beyond your control.

I can come over at noon, so I'll see you then. Give me a ring if that doesn't work.

See you soon.

lunch

I hope we can have lunch tomorrow. I have been so worried and upset all weekend. I can't say that I know exactly everything you're going through, but I do know it will work out. You need to remember that you are a good person.

I'll be going over to my apartment in the morning, so I'll be in your (work) neighborhood. Just let me know when and where, and I'll meet you or you can come over or whatever. I'm guessing around noon?

See you tomorrow.

Tough weekend

I guess I didn’t know what to expect when everything was laid on the table. It was much harder than I anticipated. Funny, I envisioned her hating me, but no – or not yet. I thought there would be some relief, but it doesn’t feel that way right now. This is hard to express, but my leaving feels like my abandoning [him]. I know it is weird, but I spend more time with him than [her]. It hasn’t been about her for a long time. [he] and I usually hang out when I (eventually) get home at night, mornings on the weekend and so forth. Even though he is not technically my son, I feel responsible for him. It is corny, but I don’t want to be my dad (or even Kenny) and turn my back on him. He’s said some things lately to make it even harder. Yeah, he’ll be out of school soon enough, so maybe that’ll help. I don’t know.

I’m staying at a motel tonight – don’t know about tomorrow. I just need some time by myself or it seems that way. I was going to call you earlier, but I know you had your dinner planned and it seemed better to not dump things on you. I’m okay, so don’t worry. I hope you’re having a good weekend. I’ll talk to you soon.

RE: Re: Happy Thursday

Oh, I'm so sorry I missed you. I just figured you were busy. I had left my cell phone home to charge, yeah my cell phone habits are bad.

Sure, just let me know where to meet you for lunch - noon is good.

I thought I could sleep but no luck. I'm sorry if I've been acting weird or different or whatever. I am a bit stressed. The Internet is funny, so much information - even on stress. Anyway, don't feel bad (if you do), because none of it is your fault. I'm always finding something to worry about.

I hope you're sleeping peacefully - I bet the dogs are happy to have you with them. I hope to see you soon.

Re: Re: Happy Thursday

Yeah, I was talking to [a co-worker] and tried to call you back but didn't get you.

Lunch is good, if you can make it. I'm not busy.

Re: Re: Happy Thursday

I left you a voice message. Anyway, I hope dinner was good. The sandwich can wait.

I went home, fell asleep, woke up, ate dinner and watched some sports with [him] and now I'm back at the office - checking to be certain things are running as planned. Oh well, I'm heading home again, so let me know about lunch tomorrow.

Of course, I love you too :)

Re: Happy Thursday

Hi,

I've been running around all day. I haven't eaten the sandwich yet, so I have that to look forward to.

I'm sorry you're not getting much rest. I know you're stressed out. I can have lunch tomorrow, if you want, or if you don't feel like it, let me know.

I'm meeting [her] at 6:00 for dinner, so I'll be done a little while after that. I'll give you a call. If you want to come over, that's cool, or if not, again, I understand. I love you.

Re: Happy Thursday

Hey,

I'm sorry I missed lunch. I've been holed up with a bunch of loons "discussing" things. I still didn't get much sleep last night, so I'm probably not the best company. How goes the packing? Did you eat the rest of your vegetable sandwich for lunch?

Tomorrow night [her] and I are going to talk about everything, so I won't be available. I'm not sure about your schedule, but maybe lunch.

Happy Thursday

Hi,

Still up for lunch today? What time is good for you? Where do you want to meet? Over at the apt, or somewhere else?

RE: Thanks!

Hey,

Your welcome, it was fun to see you in shopping mode.

Well, it turns out there wasn't much homework, he had other things planned. I'll fill you in tomorrow - or later today.

Yes, a couch always beats the floor ;)

Thanks!

Hi

Thank you for helping me with the TV. Couldn't have done it alone. :)

Good luck with your homework. High school is tough these days -- hope you're up to it.

Nice to sit on the couch again -- I gotta get one...

RE: Thank you

Hey there,

It is tough to sit on the sideline as you are going through so much, but I understand. I can't wait to talk to you.

Thank you

Thanks for your offers of help. I feel like I need to do what needs to be done myself. I have to get used to taking care of myself. Do you know what I mean? Plus, I'm not very good company right now. And I don't even think I know where we left things the last time we talked. My brain is pretty muddled. I suppose we can discuss that later. Well, I'm off to run more errands, etc. I'll talk to you soon. Take care.

RE: Checking

Yeah, I'm sure he knows better.

I know you're busy and completely stressed out, so I'm not sure what to do - as in when/if I can see you again. I guess you'll let me know.

RE: Checking

No, he can see that he needs to leave me alone.

RE: Checking

Yeah, a little late.

I hope [your boss] isn't pestering you (any more than usual).

RE: Checking

Yes.

Well, I wasn't pay much attention, so I guess so. Work is work, I didn't get here until 2:00, so it's just begun. Are you working?

RE: Checking

Yeah, it should be fine.

Oh, I'm sure it was good. I'm sorry to have missed it. How's work?

RE: Checking

Hey,

I know where that is located. It seems like a nice area, right?

I needed to do something so I did end up going, but I left at the intermission.

RE: Checking

Hi,
It is the apartments near your house. Yes, I'm stressed out.

Did you go to the show? Was it good?

RE: Checking

Oh, I'm sorry you had to go through that alone. I'd offer my help, but I guess I'm not supposed to - I dunno. Where is it? I know you are stressed out, but hang in there.

RE: Checking

Hi,

I guess I'm okay, considering. I rented an apartment today. I guess it will take a couple of days for the utilities to be turned on, but I can start moving my stuff in tomorrow. I'm trying to pack. It's been a very long, difficult weekend.

Hope you're doing well.

Checking

I'm not supposed to call you, so, well, I hope you are okay.

RE: Hey

You don't sound okay, but I'll take your word for it.

I'm sorry today didn't go so well. I'm sorry you won't be there tomorrow, disappointing, but I understand. If you're not going, I'm not sure I'll be there either. I wish I could help.

RE: Hey

Hi,

Yes, I'm doing okay. Sorry you had a long night.

I wasn't able to find an apt. today. Or one that I would be able to live in.
I'll have to look more tomorrow. I'm afraid I won't be able to go the show.
I don't want to miss it, but I really have to get this taken care of as soon as possible. If I can make it, I will let you know.

RE: Hey

Not a fun weekend, but I hope you're doing okay.

Last night didn't go so well when I got home (wanting to sleep) as I ended up tracking down the boy at 3:30 AM and then going back and forth with him. I guess these things happen as teenagers test the limits, but I'm worn out today.

Oh well, that's probably more than you wanted to know, but I wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you.

RE: Missed

I think you may need some toothbrush training.

RE: Missed

Yeah, I am doing okay. Aside from gagging myself sick with the toothbrush.

RE: Missed

I'm okay, you? Yeah, it was a bit late.

RE: Missed

How are you doing? Work late?

RE: Missed

How are you doing? Work late?

RE: Missed

That's good news :)

RE: Missed

Yes, I did rest and no, I didn't call her. I'm not that crazy. ;)

RE: Missed

I hope you were able to rest and you didn't call mom.

RE: Missed

Hi,

Yes, I am tired. Sleep hasn't been easy. This wine should help. I think I'll get good and sloshed and call mom. Ha. Ha.

Missed

I'm sorry, the work didn't go as planned so I was stuck upstairs a little longer than planned. I called a while back, but you're gone.

You sounded sleepy, hope you are able to get some type of rest. Oh well, I'll be here at work for a while.

RE: Hey

Ah, no reason, it's okay.

She may have suspected, but she didn't know anything. Or, maybe I'm wrong. What does 'for your sake' mean? Jesus, I guess she thinks highly of me.

Phone records? I guess I was right about watching my back? F'ing cell phones are so much trouble. I hope you don't keep old emails.

Well, I hope you are okay or as good as expected.

RE: Hey

You're drinking again? Why?

Well, I spoke to her. She said some interesting things. First of all, she said she knew before I even got it out. And she's known for a long time.

When I told her that I have no expectations with you, she said she really hoped so, for my sake. Anyway, apparently we are the talk of the town.

Hope you're not drinking now. Or at least not drinking and driving. What the hell was that all about? Where were you?

One other thing. Please don't call my cell phone for awhile. I think he may be looking at the phone records and that would just hurt him more.

RE: Hey

Well, I was thinking that. Yeah, it was nice to talk even if we didn't say much.

One thing, I was sick because I drank a bit last night. The bad part is I had been drinking when I was stopped by the police - but they didn't even ask.

RE: Hey

Stoppit, I wasn't thinking that at all. It was nice to talk to you for abit.

Hey

I'm sorry, I guess I didn't say the right thing on the phone. I'm sorry for everything going on. I guess tonight won't be much fun, but it'll keep you distracted for a bit.

RE: Okay

Sure, like I've said many times, you can call me.

RE: Okay

That's good news.

I'd like to tell you more, if you want to know. I guess getting together today is not likely. Could I call you?

RE:Okay

Thanks, I'm feeling better.

Hmm, you will be? That means you are not okay now (as you said). Hmm.

RE: Okay

Thanks, I'm feeling better.

Hmm, you will be? That means you are not okay now (as you said). Hmm.

RE: Okay

Oooo, sorry you were sick. Any better now? How are you feeling?

I'm okay -- or will be. Really.

RE: Okay

Well, I'm glad you are okay - or you are saying you are okay.

Sorry for the delayed response, I woke up sick in the middle of the night finally returned to sleep around nine and just woke up.

Okay

Hi,

I don't want to go into details in e-mail, but I am okay. Thanks for thinking of me and worrying, although I wish I could stop you from doing that. Talk soon?

RE: So....

Yep, see you there :)

RE: So....

Cajun place? Okay, 6 should work for me.

RE: So....

Hmm, that Cajun place near work? Does 6:00 work?

RE: So....

Yes, I think I could eat a little something. I can't think of a preference... you?

So....

Any idea or preference? I assume you are hungry??

Wow, your name in lights! It'll be the party of the year!

Fishing and no drinking? WTF!? Somebody's husband fishes like that - hmm, don't remember who. Oh yeah, it is serious business. A couple years ago I talked to a guy about building a site that provided fishing stats and so forth - Bass tour or bassmaster, something like that. People take that shit. :)

RE: Wowee

Whatever you say ;) Mono!? Lord, don't get my mind going, now I'll be worried.

Get some sleep, see you soon :)

I'm watching a program about this --http://www.portfolio.mvm.ed.ac.uk/studentwebs/session2/group12/georgie.htm

RE: Wowee

You are trying to trick me! I picked Saturday... Okay, you think on it. I guess I'll go sleep some more. I wonder if I have mono or something? Nah, probably not. :)

Can't wait to see you. :)

RE: Wowee

I guess it is better than working.

Yes, I should be free. Hmm, I thought I finally picked Saturday and the days before, but okay - let me think ;)

RE: Wowee

Yeah, he's way into the fishing. In the snow and everything.

Are you still free tomorrow? If so, I believe it is your turn to choose a meeting spot.

RE: Yuck

Ha, I was thinking that same thing as I trimmed away. I dunno, I just stopped when they looked right :)

RE: Wowee

Not rich! I guess I'll be getting a first-hand, up-close lesson from my friend in party planning.

I swear I don't remember saying anything like that, but I did? Hmm... I think it means they borrow this equipment from their church, but the church needed to use it this weekend. I dunno. They live out in the country with all their kin. They were a bit kooky. But the guy was talking about fishing, and how much he loves it. He enters tournaments and stuff. And he takes it very seriously -- no drinking. Just fishing. But he doesn't keep the fish! Only when he goes crappie fishing.

RE: Yuck

You're so industrious. How did you know when to stop when trimming the bushes?

RE: Yuck

Good :)

Well, I was under the house again, trimmed the bushes, and some other things.

RE: Wowee

Money and time and effort...

It seems the church had the fish fry equipment so it turned into a regular cookout. Or that is what I was told. Fried fish is good, but it makes my stomach hurt, so it may be a good thing.

RE: Yuck

I'm getting better. :)

That house should be pretty pristine by now, I'd think.

RE: Yuck

Oh, I'm sorry you're feeling bad, I hope you feel better soon.

The day has been okay - working around the house.

RE: Wowee

Quite an investment? Hmm, what does that mean, money, time ..?

No fish?? What kind of fish fry serves burgers?!?

Yuck

I have been sleeping pretty much all day. Don't know if it was the bonfire smoke that did it, or what, but I've felt terrible and lost my voice again.

Hopefully, all this rest will kick it.

I hope you are feeling okay and enjoying your day. I'll talk to you soon. :)

RE: Wowee

Yeah, I needed that nap.

I guess I'll be making quite an investment in this party. Not as rich as her, but we'll make it work. And, yes, I want a blowout too!

Hm, sounds like a good movie. The cookout was fine. No fish. Had a burger, watched some football and then a bonfire. It was nice and cool out so the fire felt good. I was so sleepy the whole time, even though I did sleep before that. :)

RE: Wowee

Hey there :)

You forgot something? I don't believe it! I guess She is planning a blowout party. Well, there better be something similar for your birthday!

Yes, this morning was great, you are too much. You feel so good and -as always - so beautiful.

I rolled through Wendy's when we left - yes, starving - and then headed over to the movie. It was or is a great movie - always the battle of good versus evil. A few errands after that and then asleep on the couch - so tired.

I hope you had a good nap and enjoyed the fish.

Talk to you soon :)

Wowee

Hi,

I hope you are soundly asleep right now. ;) I know I am sleepy. I ate at the restuarant with her, and this party is way bigger than I thought and I am more involved than I thought. Seems I forgot a conversation or something?

I don't doubt it, but I'm kind of lost now. I'll tell you more about it later.

This morning was too much fun. You always smell and feel and taste so delicious, better every time.

I'm going to go take a nap and think about you,

RE: Leaving

Uh, are you going to tell me where? :)))))

RE: Leaving

I thought you'd like that. ;)

Okey doke, I'll see you there. :)

RE: Leaving

You work too much ;)

Okay, 9:30 is fine. I guess that hotel name is made up, if not - okay :)

RE: I'm tired

I wasn't talking about you, so stoppit :) Yeah, I'm over here, coming over?

Well, you need to rest since you've been a bit sick - rest those vocal chords!!

RE: Leaving

Oh, good, you worked out some of your frustration. I worked til past 7, then kind of crashed.

Hm, would 9:30 work? At the Hotel du Love?

RE: Leaving

I can meet you early, just say where.

Not much game, I ended up cutting the grass, raking, etc. - the physical work was good :)

Leaving

Okay, I'm outta here - gonna go watch the game. I'll be able to relax since my team is not playing ;)

Let me know about tomorrow/Sunday/whenever.

You should leave soon too!!

RE: That was sweet

Thanks, you seem to know the right things to say :)

Yes, tomorrow and/or Sunday work for me. Since it is your turn (I picked twice and even brought you lunch ;o )

RE: That was sweet

I'm glad you feel better. :) It'll pass (the work). You've wanted to be done with it for awhile, so maybe this is the way to do it? I know it's irritating to think that people are blaming you for things that are being called wrong. It's easy to do that when you are not there and not an employee. I know you've worked so hard on that project.

I'm not so busy. Would you be able to get together Saturday morning/afternoon or Sunday morning/afternoon? I need to come out that way to stop in at [a friend's house] to help her plan this party and we could hang out too, maybe, if you want? Let me know which day would be better.

RE: That was sweet

Hey, I was just sending you a message :)

No, thank you so much for hanging out with me. Yes, [they] pushed my buttons this morning. I feel like I've failed. I know I take it too personal, but I put a lot of time and effort into the project. Then, I feel like it is wrong to blame others when I probably could've done a better job or whatever. At this point, I'm through - I'll send the note to end my involvement later (want to make sure I'm calm and coherent first) and be done with it.

Anyway, you made me feel so much better and my co-workers thank you! Plus, I knew you were hungry!

I'll leave in a bit. I guess you'll be busy all weekend, so I'm glad to see you today.

That was sweet

Thanks for bringing me lunch and hanging out with me. I feel so much better. :)

I hope you do too. I know you're frustrated with [them]. Can you leave early? Take some time for yourself, do nothing?

RE: Shaky

Yes, you need your rest (and food)! I hope you sleep well and stay warm.

It is always great to see you. Always.

Yes, talk to you tomorrow (or later today) :)

RE: Shaky

Okay, I'll try not to ask these questions any more. Or at least for awhile. I have thoroughly worn myself out, so I need to go to bed.

I'm glad I got to see you today.

Get some rest and I'll talk to you tomorrow. Good night. :)

RE: Shaky

Well, every family is different (aren't I smart). After so long, it is hard to get going again with everybody having their own lives. Funny, I stay in contact with lots of people in my family, but I rarely tell them much about what is going on with me. That is a family trait - we hold things in and don't reveal a lot. I can't explain that one.

Well, I feel bad or odd when I don't have an answer. I feel like I am supposed to have clear answers or solutions or have a clue what is going on. A lot of times I hold things in as I try to figure them out (do it a lot with work) and I'll talk when I think I have an answer. Yeah, I know, that is wrong. These days, I'm not sure about the her situation. I have no clue what to do or say about it, as it percolates in my skull.

I'm not sure about being smart, a lot of times I think too much.

RE: Shaky

You shouldn't think of it as a weakness. If there's a weakness, it's the way my family has drifted apart and will probably remain that way. Living so far away from one another makes it easier to do, but if we really wanted to be a close family, we could be. But most of us don't want that. It's too painful.

And it's gone on that way for so long, it won't change, I don't think.

Yes, it can be hard to get you to talk about certain topics, especially lately. You used to, but not now. I was interpreting that as part of the "it is what it is and no more," but I'm probably wrong, as usual. I just needed to let you know that I'm scared because it's such a relief to have you close
to me. I can breathe again. But it also feels terrible because I'm married. And you have her. And I guess it's going to stay that way. And if I lose you again, I don't know if I can handle it.

I know you're always thinking. That's what I love about you. You're too damned smart.

RE: Shaky

As you know, sticking with my family is one of my weaknesses. Everybody else has cut him loose but me. I can't explain why I hang around. It's like the family gathering last week. I see a lot of them at least a few times a year - cousin works up the road, so I stop by occasionally; I try to talk to my brother from time to time; I visit my aunts and uncles, etc..

No, I didn't mean that at all. I just meant that you've seen me at or close to my lowest. It embarrasses me. I don't want to lose you, but I'm having trouble figuring everything out. I love being with you. I hope you know that.

One thing - and a big thing - I am not accustomed to being so open and sharing with another person. My family doesn't talk about real things and feelings very often. Funny, because I'm usually the one to confront other family members and ask questions etc. Anyway, like I said, I'm not always trying to hide things, I just am not used to sharing what I'm thinking and so forth. I'll gladly answer any questions - as I hope I do. I hope that makes some sense.

Oh, and yes, there are always a million things going through my mind. I'm constantly thinking whether it's work, you, family, the team, or whatever.

RE: Shaky

It's good that you know both the positive and negative in him. And you have a relationship with him.

I love you too. Don't you know that? That's why I spend time with you. I want to spend more time with you, but I don't get to do that. I get the feeling there are a million things you just are not going to tell me and there are no promises. So I'm right to fear losing your love again? Is that what you mean? It's going to happen again.

RE: Shaky

Well, I don't always mention them, but he has some good qualities. Also, he is a bit of an asshole which I definitely have some of that in me. He is a loner, always worked too much, caustic sense of humor, says what he is thinking (to strangers/co-workers but not family), and some more I can't think of. He was always good with his hands and taught me many things about fixing this and that as well as figuring out things. If I ever gave my life over to alcohol, I'd probably end up like him - but that will never happen.

On the other hand, he's hurt a lot of people which I don't really think is in me, and we are worlds apart in terms of education and intelligence.

I love you, plain and simple. I can't believe you still spend time with me after the "other stuff." I have my problems and I hope I've laid those (or most of them) out for you.I know what you mean, sometimes I don't ask things because I don't want to know.

RE: Shaky

I didn't call you him. I don't know him. I just was interested in whether you meant what you wrote about how you wouldn't resist thinking that you were like him any more. And, of course, from some things that you've told me about him, that scares me. I'm scared. I don't know why you're giving me all this wonderful attention and love exactly. I mean, after the other stuff. I'm scared to lose it again. And I'm scared to ask you these questions and get the answers.

RE: Shaky

Re-energized!! :)

No, I like to talk - especially to you. I'm not the most forthcoming, so please ask any and everything on your mind. Again, I love talking to you.

On the dad issue, I know I'm confusing. While I say I'm very much like him, somebody calling me him carries a lot of baggage. Yeah, that doesn't make sense. It is an onion, the more you peel off its layers - the more it stinks.

Stay warm!!

RE: Shaky

I'm fed now. :)

Just a question from something you wrote. You really don't want to talk about anything do you? It just is what it is?

It's cold out there.

RE: Shaky

Well, I could've easily fed you something - I should not have believed you earlier when you said you were not hungry. You need to eat!

I guess I took it more as an observation. I am very much like him. Of course, there are differences, but a lot the same. I'm not sure it is all bad, just the way it is.

No problems, gonna be cold tonight so no a/c.

RE: Shaky

The food thing wasn't your fault. And I'm sorry about that question. Please don't say maybe I'm right. I know there's no point in asking questions like that now, but I'm a girl and sometimes I can't help it.

I hope everything went okay tonight.

RE: Shaky

I felt so bad leaving you, I should've got you some food. I'm sorry. And, I must admit, you shocked me with the dad comment/question. Maybe you're right.

I'm glad you're feeling better.

Shaky

Nice to see you, as always. Sorry I pooped out on you tonight. I really started feeling bad and shaky after not eating for too long and I didn't want to get all moody or emotional on you.

I've had some food now and I'm feeling better. Don't forget to blog about what was said to you. ;)

You

I want you - feel you, touch you, taste you, smell you on my hands, hold you, mmm :)

RE: RE: I'm tired

Can't wait :)

Sleep tight sexy lady.

RE: RE: I'm tired

OK, OK, OK! I'll sleep on it and let you know...

I think I'll try to sleep now and you need to, too. Sweet dreams. :)

RE: RE: I'm tired

Yes, yes and YES. Oh, I picked August Moon so it looks like you're in the batter's box!

RE: RE: I'm tired

Ok, so maybe we'll meet? Is that what we're saying?

RE: RE: I'm tired

I don't have any plans. Not doing anything. Are you working a full day? Or not, since you're there now, and were there last night?

RE: RE: I'm tired

Well, I know working, but after that?

Re: RE: I'm tired

I'll make an adjustment.

Working. You?

Re: RE: I'm tired

Uh, not so hard! ;)

What are you doing tomorrow?

Re: RE: I'm tired

Vroom Vroom! Let's go, baby!

Re: RE: I'm tired

I thought you were going to call it your handlebar :)

Re: RE: I'm tired

I'll try it. And it must be super delicious!

Aha, good to know. And I was going to call it the captain. That would have been wrong.

Re: RE: I'm tired

Yeah, but maybe you should switch to that toothpaste since you love peanuts - it may stop the gagging.

That McSweeney's is crazy. Mine is The General.

Re: RE: I'm tired

:)

Wow, the one about the possible peanut oil in the toothpaste is scary. Those allergies are very serious. Those lying marketers!

http://www.mcsweeneys.net/links/lists/28AdamWasson.html

Re: RE: I'm tired

Yeah, that is true.

Oh, that tickles :)

Here's a sight for ya - http://www.mouseprint.org/

Re: RE: I'm tired

Oh. You've had a crazy schedule this week. That's part of why you're tired!

Let me whisper in your ear. ;)

Re: RE: I'm tired

I left for a bit and came back, everybody is long gone. I make sure the shit runs tonight and I can sleep late tomorrow.

Always!!

Re: RE: I'm tired

That is a looooong day. Is a crew there with you or are you alone?

I'll remember that. :)

Re: RE: I'm tired

I have to wait to 11:00 - a certain process.

Your voice is always sexy :)

Re: RE: I'm tired

Oh, I thought you were leaving. I guess not yet.

I should have called you before my voice came back so I could talk all sexy to you.

Re: RE: I'm tired

I'm at work, so that'll be hard, but I will -> > >eventually :)

Re: RE: I'm tired

I'm okay, yes. :) Go to bed. Go to sleep!

Re: RE: I'm tired

You suppose? Hm, you okay?

Re: RE: I'm tired

Well, that is something, I suppose. I try.

You make me smile too. Sorry you're feeling so tired. You should go to bed earlier tonight. Okay?

Re: RE: I'm tired

Well, sometimes everything and everyone bothers me, but you make me smile and it goes away.

I always feel like I should be able to fix things. I'm leaving soon.

I'm not a big Breakfast Club fan, so I don't remember :/

RE: I'm tired

Sometimes I bother you. ;) Don't take everything so seriously; just say F it. It's okay to do that.

It's from the Breakfast Club. He's failing shop, remember?

How long are you going to have to work?

RE: I'm tired

I wear myself out, take things too serious ;) Oh, you never bother me.

What's that quote, am I supposed to recognize it?

RE: I'm tired

Yeah. I suppose I have. Sorry if I've asked for too much. Are you still at work?

It's okay. Nothing going on.

RE: I'm tired

Okay. :) What's wearing you out? Well, I won't bother you while you're working.

I'm feeling ok. And the Breakfast Club is on, so I'm all set for an exciting night. "My light didn't go on."

I'm tired

I’m not physically tired, but my mind is exhausted. You ever have one of those days (or weeks) where it feels like people only want something from you? Just take, take, and more take?

How’s your evening?

RE: Hot out there

Yes, very hot, turn that sucker on!! Hmm, is this Indian Summer?

I'm okay. No, not your voice! Well, at least you have IM :) Get some rest.

Hot out there

Geez, what's with the heat? I don't want to turn the air on in October.

How are you doing? I'm feeling a bit less tired, but my voice is going. Not sure why. I'm sure everyone will be glad if I can't talk. ;)

RE: Great dinner

I liked teaching the training classes, but only every now and then - I could never do it on a daily basis.

Hopefully the trip will go well.

Ah, it's only a football game, there are always more and more and more ... plus, I have my priorities ;)

I hope you sleep well. I'll talk to you tomorrow.

RE: Great dinner

I'm getting more patient (yes, really, I am!) but tonight was trying. I'm not cut out to be a teacher. I should have slapped that grill out of that guy's mouth.

I am promptness when I am meeting you. ;)

Have fun on your day trip. I know you will.

I am very impressed that you missed the Eagles to hang out with me. You are sweet. We could have gone somewhere to watch the game, you know... I can't believe I even had that thought, but I did. I must really be more patient.
;)

I think I'll try to go to sleep now. Thanks for making my day. I'll talk to you tomorrow. :)

RE: Great dinner

Yes, I'm surprised you have made it this long with your legendary impatience! I just appreciate your promptness with arriving at [the restaurant] :)

I talked to [her], so I'll be going - around 10 AM.

Oh, and you know, I opted to spend dinner with you as my [team] was playing on [tv], are you impressed?

Great dinner

:)

Thanks for calling -- you saved me right when I was about to become rude, and that wouldn't have been good for the students. You know how impatient I can be. It was a welcome surprise. And dinner and hanging out with you is always the best part of my day. You make me laugh. :)

You should definitely go on the little trip with your [family] tomorrow; you'll have a good time. And you can bond. And you can get away from work! It's win-win.

RE: Fabulous

You're so smart.

I thought so, but I'm running out of steam.

You better get some sleep. I think I'll get some myself, g'night :)

RE: Fabulous

Kind of reminds me of All About Eve. Battle between the older stage actress and the young, ambitious ingenue.

You'll keep up. I have faith in you.

RE: Fabulous

Yeah, I saw part of that, it looked okay.

Nah, let it wait until tomorrow. I have work to do, but I have no freaking clue. Ugh, things are starting to fall off my plate.

RE: Fabulous

Hm, I could be working. I've got an idea for my work percolating in my brain, god help me. Maybe I should get started on that.

RE: His girlfriend

I thought you would like that.

RE: Your show is on

I am quite serious. Not sure what happened :/

RE: Fabulous

No work to keep you busy? ;)

RE: His girlfriend

That is a good feeling. :)

RE: Your show is on

Are you serious? Are you hallucinating? Did you spill Coke on it?

RE: Fabulous

I'm more energized than tired.

Being Julia with Annette Bening is pretty good.

RE: Your show is on

Why are there ants coming out of my laptop - in and around it. I've killed quite a few, weird.

His girlfriend

Dexter's girlfriend, he says it is a match made in heaven - he found somebody as f'ed up as himself.

RE: Fabulous

Dexter works with the police too, only an hour though.

Yeah, I'm beat, but have to get some of this stuff done. You tired?

RE: Your show is on

I think so. I was looking at the mysteries and thrillers at Borders today because I think I need to read more of those these days. I'm tired of all these literary books I've been reading. ;) I like a good mystery or serial killer.

RE: Your show is on

Oh, that may be a book for you :)

RE: Fabulous

Mm.

Yes, it's good. The lead character is a psychologist who works with the police. The shows are two hours long, though, so it takes awhile to get through one. Well, about two hours. ;)

Yeah, I noticed that. You should go to sleep.

RE: Your show is on

Thank you. I see it's based on a book:

http://www.sho.com/site/dexter/book.do

RE: Fabulous

:)

Oh, I've never seen Wire in the Blood, good?

Yeah, trying, but I'm kind of worn out.

RE: Your show is on

I'll try to tape it for you (yes, actual VCR tape).

RE: Your show is on

Ooooo, sounds perfect!

RE: Fabulous

Oh, it's no joke. ;)

I've been watching creepy stuff. Wire in the Blood from BBC and Law and Order.

You been working?

RE: Your show is on

God, it is creepy, this may give me bad dreams :/

RE: Fabulous

Fit you? Is that a joke? ;)

You been reading?

RE: Fabulous

Okay, I'm telling you, you fit me perfectly. :)

RE: Your show is on

Crap, still don't have that channel. Is it worth ten bucks a month more?

Your show is on

Dexter

RE: Area 25

Geez, thanks, this sounds like a plan.

RE: Fabulous

No, you can tell me.

It was a great time. I love you too :))))

Fabulous

I can't tell you how much I enjoyed myself this afternoon with you.

I love holding you and watching your face, making you laugh and cry out. You are too cute when you act nervous and shy, but it is my mission to make you stop being nervous. :) Is it strange that I feel so comfortable with you seeing me lose control? It just feels natural to me. I love you,

Area 25

Have any of your doctors ever talked to you about area 25? I was watching 60 minutes and they were talking about how some people with "treatment-resistent depression" were trying surgery in this area of the brain and it was working.

RE: Bah

Okay, I'll give you a call later. :)

Nope, didn't hear from her. Guess I'll have to tell her about us later. And doesn't she want her birthday present? She doesn't know what she's missing!

That's great that you had a good time. I want to hear all about it.

I did have a relaxing day. Little bit frustrating, though. I was reading and I just couldn't concentrate. I have no attention span any more. Even though I liked the book, I'd read a page or two, then have to jump up and go do something else, then come back, then put it down....all day.

Talk to you soon,

RE: Bah

Yeah, not a good day for the Hawks - oh well, tough to be #1.

Maybe we can get together afterwards? I'm supposed to be there at noon, not sure how long it'll take I'm thinking four hours or so. Give me a ring in the afternoon.

The family gathering turned out to be lots of fun. It was great to see everybody. I quickly fixed the situation and everybody kept their mouth shut. Lots of laughs :)

No get together with your pal? You have a nice relaxing day?

Talk to you soon.

Bah

Hawks are not doing it tonight.

I know you have to work tomorrow (not sure what time), but if you have a break, or time before or after, and you're interested, let me know if you want to get together. I'll be free all day.

Hope the family get-together was fun for you today.

RE: You are right

Ah, they never give me as much of a hard time as I give myself. Don't worry, there will be no problems, I'll make up with mom and that'll be that :)

Yes, thanks for the laughs :D

RE: You are right

No, I don't always think you are up to something. Not at all. I'm just always trying to keep up with your jokes and everything. And I wasn't really thinking too much about it, but thank you for the clarification. I thought of that because I was envisioning your family giving you a hard time, and I didn't like the thought.

Tonight was too much fun and I absolutely loved making you laugh so much. :)

You are right

I'm sorry, I told you that you were wrong when talking about my family but you are right. I was referring to the most recent incident ([restaurant] sighting) when I said only [she] has said anything to me. Of course, others know previous happenings (after I told), so you are correct. I know you think I'm always up to something, so I wanted to send this note before receiving a barrage of questions.

It was great to see you tonight, that laugh was just what I needed - you're a nut :-)

RE: Want

Ah, sweet, I guess I'm supposed to pick? As usual, I dunno.

RE: Want

No, I don't have plans. You said today was a problem for you. So, I'm free later, too.

RE: Want

Yeah, I will.

I think you said you already made plans, but I'm free later if you want to get together.

RE: Want

Keep holding, kissing and touching me the way you do, please. You make me feel special and pretty.

Want

As usual, you were so beautiful tonight. Hugging, kissing, and touching you

I wanted you so bad. You're truly special.

RE: Bruised and sleepy

Oh, I'm really sorry. I hope you are not too sore.

Talk to you soon.

Bruised and sleepy

Hi,

That was some aggressive tickling; I think I'm bruised. :) Get some sleep and have sweet dreams.

Talk to you tomorrow,

RE: Yeah

Hmm, it ain't that easy these days. G'night ;)

RE: Yeah

And you. Okay, I will. You do the same. :)

Yeah

It was great to see you. Get some rest.

RE: OMG

Good :)

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

THAT's the problem, I can't do anything about the stuff down there - I have no control!! :(

RE: OMG

I've got a strong heart. I'm okay. ;)

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

The stuff that is broke is elsewhere and I can't get to it to fix it.

Hmm, okay, I understand :)

RE: OMG

Oh, sorry :/

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

The stuff that is broke is elsewhere and I can't get to it to fix it.

Hmm, okay, I understand :)

RE: OMG

Oh yea, about 10 terrible things ran through my mind. You're going to get a spanking for that.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

A control issue? Not sure what you mean.

Hmm, okay? What?

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

A control issue? Not sure what you mean.

Hmm, okay? What?

RE: OMG

:--)

I thought you'd like that.

RE: OMG

LOL Don't scare me like that!!! Rock on!

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

It's a control issue and I can't control what is screwing up so it drives me crazy(ier) :)

Hmm, okay.

OMG

Jesus Christ - they won 8-7 in 14 innings, the window is still barely open.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

It's a control issue and I can't control what is screwing up so it drives me crazy(ier) :)

Hmm, okay.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

No way! That kind of comment would get my blood boiling too. Hmm. Don't get too upset -- remember they are idiots. You know that you know what you are doing there.

I believe it is Oct. 23.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

No way! That kind of comment would get my blood boiling too. Hmm.

Don't get too upset -- remember they are idiots. You know that you know what you are doing there.

I believe it is in October.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

I have no clue. I'm preparing for a battle tomorrow at the office over a couple issues. I really need to stop taking things so serious, but the comment "He doesn't know what he is doing" rings in my head.

Ah, we all get busy from time to time :)

When you leave for vacation?

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

I have no clue. I'm preparing for a battle tomorrow at the office over a couple issues. I really need to stop taking things so serious, but the comment "[He] doesn't know what he is doing" rings in my head (it was said today by an individual in [another office]).

Ah, we all get busy from time to time :)

When you leave [on vacation]?

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

:) Come on, spit it out!

I know. Sorry. I know you've got a lot of stuff to take care of. Plus, I have to give you a chance to miss me. ;)

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

You're a nut.

You were busy last weekend!

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

You're a nut.

You were busy last weekend!

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Alright, but feel free to give input. I always want to know what you think.

You're always so busy.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Alright, but feel free to give input. I always want to know what you think.

You're always so busy.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Because you're so indecisive? I guess we can defer until tomorrow. I'm not sure about the weekend, I know Saturday is out, not sure how long I'll work Sunday and Friday may be a problem ....

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Because you're so indecisive? I guess we can defer until tomorrow.

I'm not sure about the weekend, I know Saturday is out, not sure how long I'll work Sunday and Friday may be a problem ....

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Hm, why does it always seem like it is my turn? Meet at the park? Meet at a bar and you can get me drunk? A restaurant seems like a waste, considering neither of us has an appetite for food. Or whatever you want to do. I won't see you all weekend? Drag.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Hm, why does it always seem like it is my turn? Meet at the park? Meet at a bar and you can get me drunk? A restaurant seems like a waste, considering neither of us has an appetite for food. Or whatever you want to do. I won't see you all weekend? Drag.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Consider it done, meet me at the Mall.

I thought I picked the final destination last night and I had do drive all over to get, well, I dunno.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Consider it done, meet me at the Mall.

I thought I picked the final destination last night and I had do drive all over to get, well, I dunno. She has sent me some recent links to [another] site (which I thought was GONE), so maybe she is hinting? The [other] newsletter is been a chore with finding topics that haven't been covered.

A lesson in being careful what you wish for

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/15018869/

How does he walk around with that thing?

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

I need a couple of bucks for a watch battery. ;)

Your turn!

You've been doing that for a long time...may be time for a break, at least. But she won't want to let you go.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Oh right, now let's take care of you!! Seriously, how much do you want? I'll give it to you tomorrow.

Now, the hard part, when and where??

Oh, I'm getting tired my editor. It may be time to dump the writing, I am scraping the bottom on issues.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Hey, where's my cut???

Goody!

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

I'll be there at 9 waiting for it to open!

Yes!

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Good deal -- put that in the bank!

So...we doing something tomorrow, then?

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Hardy har har.

Yes, it is strange. It seems the editor that gave me the assignment isn't working with that magazine anymore, but he pushed through the payment anyway. I better hurry up and cash it!

I'm sure it helps keep you sharp for the blog.

Alrighty then.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

You are a machine!

Hm, that is strange. Maybe next you can get paid for an article that you don't even have to write.

Yes, my brain needs all the help it can get. And doing the Jumble is such a marketable skill.

Nuttin, honey.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

I've been working through a bug list for the project as I watched the game, so I've managed to stay billable ;)

Funny, I received a check for that article you helped me with, but I don't think it was ever published. Weird.

Oh, the jumble is supposed to keep you mentally sharp!

I have the family thing Saturday, working Sunday and not sure about Friday, so whatcha doing tomorrow?

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Sure. You have to stay on your toes.

I never did sleep. Probably just work that was making me feel tired. What yuse been doing? Working? Cooking? Hey, I'm getting better at the Jumble.
Does that mean my brain is getting a good workout? I'm really worried about my memory and brain power.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Exactly :)

All is quiet at the moment. Thanks for reminding me.

How was the nap?

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Uh, wet is good. ;)

Oh, damn. Yes, and the next year and the next...

Any more family drama today or are they leaving you alone? Only three days til family reunion time!

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

It felt good all day, now it is a bit wet out there :)

Too late, it is screwed and their season is over. Oh well, there is always next year.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Yeah, it feels good out there.

Uh oh, they better not screw it up! I'll cross my fingers and toes. And eyes.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Yep, more rain!!

Shoot me, I'm watching the game.

Re: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Mm, squeeze me. ;)

Quite a storm out there.

Re: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Well-rounded in all the right places :)

S'pose to rain tonight and be cold tomorrow. Go take you a nap!

Yeah, I avoid them.

Re: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

I try to be well-rounded.

Been busy and it's going alright. That big lunch has made me sleepy.

Want to hit the couch for a bit. ;)

They are the bad kind of nut. :/

Re: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Hmm, well-placed random bits of knowledge :)

Yeah, I'm okay, been busy with stuff over here and getting a hair cut at 5:30. H'bout you?

Most salespeople are loons!

Re: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Nah, just have random bits of knowledge.

You doing okay? These salespeople are such idiots. They are trying my patience. Absolutely ridiculous.

Re: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Wow, you are so well versed.

Re: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

I think the etiquette books say you have a year after to send the gift. :) Maybe I'll send a card.

Re: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

I told her about the thank you card and she said she had still not given a gift. Well, i thought it was funny.

Re: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

I guess she has invited me to a couple of things. She's been busy too.

I'll have to see if I can get her to go to dinner some time or something.

I still have to give her her gift!

That topic is tabled!

Re: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

She is still parking in the handicap spot due to her thumb :)

She said she has invited you out a few times but you are always busy.

Beautiful day!

Please, don't make me sick with any talk of kissing her.

Re: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Hm, well, I'm sure Beth was thrilled to get to spend time with you. :)

Any talk of the thumb? I went to that fish place and ate way too much. Beautiful weather out there.

She took one of those blog quizzes and it said she was a perfect kisser. I'm thinking it tells everyone that. Nope, no lessons from me for her. Have YOU been teaching her?

Re: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Wow, what a mix (of teaching), I wonder how he'll turn out.

It was okay, and I didn't tell her anything. I'm leaving that for you.

A perfect kisser? You been teaching her?

Re: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

He's our adopted son and we are teaching him the biz.

Yummy.

This is interesting (for dorks):

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Buffalo_buffalo_Buffalo_buffalo_buffalo_buffalo_Buffalo_buffalo

Note on her blog -- she is a perfect kisser. You might want to (continue to) stay away.

Re: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Not so busy. ;)

Ahahaha. He wanted excitement -- and he got it! People are strange.

So, where are you taking her to lunch today?

Re: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

I would think it would become a nuisance after a while, but what do I know.

Hmm, so busy day?? ;)

Here ya go -- http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/15021030/

Re: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

What man wouldn't?

It makes me laugh every time (still) that I see those commercials for Viagra and stuff and they mention this: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Priapism

Yes, I think it's funny.

Ew: It is also said a hanged man will get an erection and may ejaculate. This is, however, not caused by disinhibition of the penis, but rather due to blood rushing to the bodily extremities upon hanging.

Re: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

I was joking :) I'm sure he likes the attention.

Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

I'm making fun of him. Um, why hasn't he had that implant removed?

In 10 years? I don't get it. And does he have to have special pants made?

I wonder.

Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

Are you making fun of me?

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

:) Come on, spit it out!

I know. Sorry. I know you've got a lot of stuff to take care of.

Plus, I have to give you a chance to miss me. ;)

RE: I like this

Oh, I was jokingly referring to repeating yourself :D

Well, I worry enough for the both of us.

My niece called me earlier. She told me she felt like calling me every morning to thank me for her having a car she could rely on.

RE: Re: A lesson in being careful what you wish for

And what are you going to do about this situation???

Okay. :) And I think I get back on the 31st, but I need to check that.

RE: Didn't go

Hm, let's see. How is this supposed to go? I tell you that you were rude and a dick and then you don't talk to me for days or weeks? Let's fight!

RE: yuck

There's nothing like craving some food, making it, and it doesn't match you’re the memory or craving. Oh well, you tried :)

Ah, football is football, it never stops.

You're supposed to argue with me!!

Oh well, I was hyper this morning, didn't sleep much last night, wanted to do something and yes I did want to see you but nothing panned out and I ended up working as usual. Sorry for my confusion.

yuck

I made the pudding but it turned out gross. The craving has gone, though, so all is well.

Hope you enjoyed the football and your day.

RE: Didn't go

Uh, okay. Your message was short, too. I don't understand this message.

Like I said, I thought we were going to lunch, because you asked and I said yes. You also seemed like you really wanted to see me since you mentioned breakfast or meeting before that. No big deal.

RE: Didn't go

I couldn't find anybody to go to the game and then they called. You don't live that far away, you could've gone home for the chili. I'm assuming from this short message that you're mad at me? I guess I am supposed to apologize, but lunch was mentioned but not set in stone. I got the sense that you were busy with work and you've repeatedly said you're often too busy to go to lunch. I guess I should've never asked. Anyway, I was really looking to blow off the whole day and goof off.

I hope tutoring and/or exercise goes well. I'm headed my friend's house to watch football in a bit.

RE: Didn't go

Oh.

No, I didn't have any pudding. I did go to lunch. I was gonna bring my chili, but I didn't because I thought we were having lunch, but when I got here...

Didn't go

Oh well, I ended up spending the day at Cardinal working on some of their problems.

How's your day? Eat any pudding?

RE: RE: Please don't eat any spinach

Yeah, I know you're busy so I don't want to pull you away from work. I know your team needs you ;) I think I may head to Cincy for the afternoon baseball game at 12:30. I know it sounds silly, but I just need to get away for a bit and if I sit here I'll end up working. I guess that negates lunch, so maybe we can get together later, but you'll have the tutoring. Oh well, we still have the book club tomorrow.

Don't work too hard :)

RE: RE: Please don't eat any spinach

Yeah, just checking the e-mail. :) A little breakfast would be nice. I better head to the office. We can have lunch. I can probably do it whenever, after 12. Does that work? Let me get down there and see what's going on and get back with you. Let me know where.

RE: RE: Please don't eat any spinach

And, I didn't know you were online, I was going to invite you over for breakfast or meet somewhere, but I know you need to go to work.

RE: RE: Please don't eat any spinach

You're such a good daughter.

I know you're busy, so maybe a late lunch or something? Let me know.

RE: RE: Please don't eat any spinach

No problems, mom's on her way home.

Hm, well, take care of youself. Let me know if you need anything. Okay?
Guess I have to go to work (sigh).

RE: RE: Please don't eat any spinach

Meh, a scratchy throat and some achiness but I'm okay.

I hope the airport shuttle trip was smooth, and don't be driving and crying at the same time!!

My mind is shot, so I'm avoiding the office today. I was so upset over some stupid shit on Friday - I just get too involved in all the bullshit. Oh well, I'll try to get some sleep.

RE: RE: Please don't eat any spinach

You're still sick?

I'm taking her to the airport, yes, but I don't think I'll be crying. I think she had a good time. Too short for her, of course. But that's true for anyone who gets to spend time with me.

RE: RE: Please don't eat any spinach

Don't tell me what to do ;)

On average? Hmm, I don't think so.

It's been okay, I've had a sore throat and been achy (but not whining). Oh, you have to take her to the airport in the morning? Will you both be crying? Well, I'm sure she enjoyed the time spent with her daughter :)

RE: RE: Please don't eat any spinach

That's good. You should go there some time.

Ha ha. On average, I probably am in one of the poorer sections of town. It's no east end.

Hope your weekend has been good. Mom leaves tomorrow morning, so she will be weepy, though she's kept it in check so far.

RE: RE: Please don't eat any spinach

No, as always, I believe you.

Not clever, it just happened that I'm on a bit of a hill although not much water troubles out this way. The system is built so the water flows to the poorer sections of town, so I know you're safe :)

RE: RE: Please don't eat any spinach

You don't believe me? It's true. Lots to see there.

Aren't you the clever one? I can hardly believe 7 people were killed.

:)

RE: RE: Please don't eat any spinach

A lot to see? Really, hmm.

No, my house sits on a hill, so I stood and watch all below tangle with the water.

Thanks, that's good :)

RE: RE: Please don't eat any spinach

Never been to a farmer's market? Hm. You're so sheltered. The Center was good. A lot to see. Have to go back some time.

Yeah, too much water. I trust you didn't drown?

Thanks, I will. :)

RE: RE: Please don't eat any spinach

Hmm, I've never been to a Farmer's market nor the Center. I knew you'd find something to do.

Lots of rain = lots of water, oh wait, you know that.

Thanks, you too :)

Re: RE: Please don't eat any spinach

Well, you're not lazy, you're management, just not used to doing the actual work ;)

Wow, it just keeps on raining. Luckly you have that nice car.

Everything okay with mother? I went to see All the King's Men. It was good, not great, but I liked it.

Re: RE: Please don't eat any spinach

Yeah, it's going okay. Went to the Farmer's market.

Basement is very wet. Damn.

Have a nice weekend.

RE: Please don't eat any spinach

It's easy. I'm lazy.

Nope, it doesn't. Stop it.

No way to stay dry with all this rain. You? On TV, they say if the water's> high, go around, don't drown! Sound advice.

RE: Please don't eat any spinach

Hmm, I've always thought chili was easy to make, but I'm sure your recipe is complicated.

It doesn't help? Really? ;)

Hope you've had fun and managed to stay dry. Have fun.

RE: Please don't eat any spinach

Eh, making chili is work. It's the weekend!

Try to relax and not worry. It doesn't help, you know. It never helps.

RE: Please don't eat any spinach

No spinach for me or you!

She'll be tired from the traveling, so take good care of her. You can make some chili :)

Ah, the stress is all my doing - as in, I worry too much.

RE: Re: I think I just missed

It looks like nothing but rain this weekend, so keep Mom and the dogs dry. I'll see you at midnight. :)

Please don't eat any spinach

http://www.cnn.com/2006/HEALTH/09/22/tainted.spinach/index.html

Maybe you just better not eat any greens of any kind. Stay healthy. :)

She isn't delayed too long. Arriving at 5:40, so I'll swing by and pick her up in a little bit. It's so cold, chili sounds good for dinner. Too bad I don't have a mom who wants to come to town and cook for her little girl.

Hope you start feeling better after your stressful day. I'll talk to you soon. Be good.

RE: Re: I think I just missed

Darn. You have a good weekend too. Don't miss me too much. I'll meet you up at your office at midnight. ;)

Well, you can just give them a pat. I like to hug them and scratch their tummies.

RE: Re: I think I just missed

Not your fault :) I should've met you for lunch, it is useless to keep working on these things. Oh well, I hope you have lots of fun. I'll talk to you soon, smile :)

I don't dislike dogs, but I’m not sure about the cuddling.

RE: Re: I think I just missed

Oh, I'm sorry. Yeah, she'll get here fine, I'm sure. Guess I'll talk to you later.

No dog cuddling? Well, I know you don't like dogs, but I do.

RE: Re: I think I just missed

Yes, a bit of attitude. It is just a bad day all around. I think I'm going to leave. So, y'all finally talked? Well, I hope she arrives safely and on time - don't want you to be robbed of any time with her.

Cuddle with the dogs? Hmm.

Re: Re: I think I just missed

Attitude today? All the finger-pointing doesn't sound too productive.

She called and is delayed getting out of Houston, so we'll see if she is delayed getting here. Flying is such fun.

I could take a nap. I need some warm dogs to cuddle with me. Oh! I have some!

Re: Re: I think I just missed

I'm trying to work less, just finish a few of these things first :) I'm in a finger-pointing match again here at the office. Fuck'm.

Any word from Mom? Where's MOM!?!?!

Yes, very dark, gloomy, rainy, time for a nap.

Re: I think I just missed

So I've heard.

You work so much. Darn, lunch would have been fun. :)

I'm doing alright. Writing silly blog posts, editing, drinking too much coffee and such. Nothing too exciting. It's so dark outside, it's making me sleepy.

Re: I think I just missed

You're a nut.

I'm okay, but I was up late working (at the office). I was going to try to come down to you for lunch, but that didn't pan out. Oh, yes, the headache is gone and the neck is feeling better. How are yuse doin?

I think I just missed

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/14927311/

Maybe next year.

How are you feeling today? Headache gone?

RE: Good

Hey,

Nah, you didn't give me this headache. It's been hurting all day, just got worse and my neck is sore/stiff. I agree about the talking :)

Yep, next week works. I hope you have fun with Mom - just relax, it'll be okay.

I do love you too.

Good

Your headache going away? Hm, I may have given that to you. Sorry, if so.
You may not agree, but I do think that we need to talk about some of these things, no matter how uncomfortable. It seems to make more sense than saying I don't know. At least we can still laugh about it, right?

I guess I won't be able to see you this weekend, since mom will be here.
Maybe I can see you Monday or Tuesday? Oh, Tuesday is the book club.

I do love you.

RE: Sleeep

Stretch it out? It's pretty big, oh yeah, okay, I know what you mean. Okay, I'm off to the office. You get some sleep!

RE: Sleeep

Noooo, I've been blamed for enough, so I'll take a pass. I'm sure they'll do great. Plus you don't want me to stretch it out.

RE: Sleeep

I'm kind of superstitious, I let somebody where an Eagles shirt I had (years ago) and the quarterback broke his leg the next day, so - unless you want to be blamed for the Phils missing the playoffs ..... :)

RE: Sleeep

I'll take the new one. I know how much you love the old one. :)

RE: Sleeep

Meh.
I have an old one you can wear. I know how much you love it.

RE: Sleeep

Ah, that will be so fun. So much family time.
What???

RE: Sleeep

No plans with my mom this weekend, I have to see her next weekend at the family gathering.

Hmm.

RE: Sleeep

Hee hee

Come on. ;) Give her a kiss for me.

What? I'm happy!

RE: Sleeep

Such a little tickle box.

Uh, no deal, but you can spend some time with my mom if you wanna :)

You're funny, NOT.

RE: Sleeep

(cough cough sniffle) Too bad, because I need to be tickled, but I'll have to wait.

How about you spend time with your mom? She'd love it. Get that good karma going. Bring me some anecdotes and we can trade mommy stories.

RE: Sleeep

I'll be okay. You're the one that has been sick.

Oh yeah, mother is coming!!! While it'd be great to see mom, I don't want to rob you of any quality time. That works, we can meet after work.

RE: Sleeep

Well, or you're well?

Sure. I'll be busy with mom over the weekend, soooooo... I thought it'd be nice to see you. Unless you want to charm her, too.

RE: Sleeep

Well.

No plans, you? Wanna get some grub?

RE: Sleeep

No, YOU don't need to be out. You're the sicky.

Are you doing anything tomorrow after work?

RE: Sleeep

While it would be lovely to see you, you'll be working and I don't want to get you in trouble. Darn these logical thoughts I have.

RE: Sleeep

:)

Well, I'll be there around midnight.

RE: Sleeep

Weird how I check my e-mail right as yours arrives.

I'll meet ya down there. ;)

Sleep is good. Yup, I'm fine. :)

Sleeep

Wow, I crashed and still sleepy, but I have to go to the office in a bit to check on a couple things (if only they'd give me a laptop).

Hope you are doing well.

RE: Hey

Hmm, I was just saying that.

I've tried, repeatedly, no luck. I'll have to get a job somewhere.

RE: Hey

Okay, good. :) Or are you just saying that?

Hm. Well, you need to get some somehow. Just in case.

RE: Hey

Okay.

It is partly my fault and apparently now I can't get it. Go figure.

RE: Hey

Relax.

Hm, well, that is a bit distressing. You can tell me about it some time.

They're about equal. Lurve them both.

RE: Hey

I guess :/

No, and I was wrong, it isn't that easy to get. It's a long ass story better told in person. I'm not blowing you off, just a lot to type :)

Better than Sportscenter??

RE: Hey

Interesting that you use the word accused? Is that how you feel? You're not insane. You just need to relax a bit.

You don't have insurance? Now how did that happen?

It is!

RE: Hey

Yes, I've been accused of that several times, but you, other friends, certain family members, and paid professionals. Yes, I am insane.

No, I am not taking anything. Another story - I don't have health insurance.

I've heard L&O is always good.

RE: Hey

Interesting. You feel you have to try to keep the family together as much as possible? Eh, let's not get into that. :)

Well, it's not a Z pack. Just a big bottle. :) Along with all the other
stuff. Speaking of which, are you taking anything for this cold or whatever you've got?

Wow, this new Law and Order is good! ;)

RE: Hey

Hmm, well I think she may have met her at grandma's funeral (dad's mother) but she doesn't remember and they were not married at that time. No, I'm the only one to meet the stepmother.

I doesn't really bother me that the guy is dead. Maybe it will as I inevitably give it more thought. It was odd that I knew so much about the guy, but I used to clean dad's office building when I was in college so ... oh well enough about that.

Yeah, that is right, take the full cycle - a Z pak? I broke out (hives) years ago and was given it.

RE: Hey

OK, OK. :)

She has never met her? I didn't know that. Have your brothers met her? Does it make you feel strange that your father's friend died? How did he die?

No, he has to take the full cycle. Several days worth. It's not healthy to stop without going through the cycle, reducing the dose gradually. You had to take it? What for?

RE: Hey

I do say so! ;)

Well, she has never met her. I just found it strange that she was in that situation and didn't know any of the people that were close to her father. Okay, I guess it isn't strange given the circumstances, but funny/weird. I guess it is more strange that I knew some of the people.

Poor Fredo, can he stop taking it? Yes, that is some strange medicine. I had a bad reaction to it a few years ago.

RE: Hey

Hm, you say so.

She didn't recognize stepmother, you mean? Strange.

Poor Fredo. He's sick from the medicine now, instead of his allergies. Funny that he's taking prednisone. The same steroid that my mother has to take and that makes her so sick. Strange substance. It can treat so much but cause so much damage at the same time.

RE: Hey

Nah, it has nothing to do with you, just one of those things. I have a few things to do before I can rest.

Weird, I talked to my sister earlier. She went to a funeral last night, father of a friend. Well, she was telling me about the guy. He did the same type of work as our father. I asked his name, and the guy actually worked with dad - I had met him. She was describing some of the people there, some I knew, and it seems like our stepmother was there. Funny, she was there and didn't know her (or anybody else).

RE: Hey

Hi,
I'm alright. I'm sorry you keep getting sick. Hm, you keep getting sick after you see me. Maybe that is a bad sign. Go to sleep! You really need rest.

Hey

My head is pounding and body aching, I hope you are doing okay.

RE: Is Bush next?

No, not that I know of. You've got it all together.

Well, I told him you were trying to get the candy back, so now you're a Indian Giving Bitch ;)

I don't help things. He said something about money and I said "well, you've have more if she (the wife) didn't spend it all"

RE: Back

Oh, nevermind.

I ain't ever seen a puppy that big, and I hope I never do.

As far as showers go, it was good.

RE: Back

Noisy sex?

Hm. So you lied to her and she believed you. Good job. Good thing she doesn't live here or she'd be following you around like a puppy.

Good shower?

RE: Back

Yeah, just hope you land in one piece.

I'd opt for the Marriott - all the noisy sex doesn't bother as many people there.

Mmm.

She's a lot of woman.

It took a lot of convincing, but she finally believed me.

Yeah, I wondered about him running utbut who knows.

Took a shower and now the blister has burst.

RE: Back

I really don't feel safe, but what can you do?

Yes, I was complaining. I was told I could stay at the Marriott. ;)

I will be gentle -- at the right time.

You need to remind her that she's the only one for you.

He is consistent. Though, I don't think it can be said that he ever "ran" the place. God, her poetry is putrid.

Whatcha doing?

RE: Back

I never feel safe flying, but I block it (most of the time).

Aww, well, you were probably complaining so much about the heat that you scared everybody (including dog) away ;)

Please, be gentle.

I told her to contact you with any questions.

Rex is insane. I like how he tells the exact time he went to the movie and then wonders if all Wal-Marts carry single servings of Spam.

RE: Back

I felt so very safe. NOT.

But I was alone. :(

Don't worry, I won't hurt you. Much.

Yeah...I can picture it. Tell her to MIND HER OWN BEE'S WAX. Dag

:) Sounds good.

Hey, Rex found single serve Spam! He is such a resource.

RE: Back

You're living on the edge!

You on the floor sweating is a good thought :)

I'm not sure if I want it or not, it sounded kind of threatening.

Funny, I did freak out momentarily, but I'm okay now.

I have the funniest cartoon for you.

RE: Back

You're living on the edge!

You on the floor sweating is a good thought :)

I'm not sure if I want it or not, it sounded kind of threatening.

Funny, I did freak out momentarily, but I'm okay now.

I have the funniest cartoon for you.

RE: Back

I went w/o lotion, but I did fly four flights with toothpaste and a lighter in my bag! It's a wonder noone was killed, huh? Crazy.

On the floor -- sweating. ;) She wouldn't turn the air on. Argh.

Don't you want your corn???

To her, "everybody" is her. Are you freaking out now? You should probably not be talking to such a nosy person.

RE: Back

How'd the whole lotion "situation" go? I didn't see you on the news.

Hmm, on the floor, puking again? ;)

Wow, that sounds like a threat (I have your corn right here).

God, I left a message on Ang's latest post and she sent me an email stating that everybody knows I am getting busy with someone not living with me.

RE: Back

Nope, I will NOT get sick again! I held my breath all the way.

It was hot. Really! I lay on the floor in front of the window and couldn't catch a breeze. It was brutal.

I've got your corn right here.

I'm serious! Don't mess around with those or we're going to have a problem.

RE: Back

Also? That is funny. Well, it can take a few days for the full effects of a plane ride to appear :)

Uh oh, was it hot or did you have a fever? Where's my corn? YOU PROMISED!

Hahahaha.

RE: Back

I'm okay, also. Cough seems to be abating finally. Nope, no problems.

Was it hot? It was really nice and cool and breezy there. Then, last night it was so freaking hot I couldn't sleep. Then, this morning, it was COLD. Crazy weather. The sweet corn was soooooo good. :)

Uhoh, a blister on your hand??? You have to take good care of those. :)

RE: Back

I'm okay and yourself? How's your cold, the flight cause further problems?

Yeah, it was so hot at yesterday's game. But, of course, you make it hotter :)

The work was cancelled or rescheduled until next week, but that didn't stop me from other work plus I had some trees to trim (now I have a blister on my mouse hand).

Back

Hey,

How are you?

Back with no flight problems. It was cold there! It is hot here! How about this weather!?

You working today? Or "working" with those hoodlums over there?

RE: RE: Well, well, well

Hmm, if you couldn't see the tv then you didn't actually watch it ;) The game was good, but it was soooo hot.

Hope your journey home is smooth and uneventful.

Talk to you soon :)

RE: RE: Well, well, well

Hi,

Watched the game on the patio at a friend's bar. Kind of funny - we couldn't see the TV very well. But the team pulled it out. I didn't see the game but I know they won big. Did you have a good time with your son?

Gotta get back on a plane today, I'll be home this afternoon. Talk to you soon and I'll see you on Monday. :)

RE: RE: Well, well, well

I'm sure you look great in that swimsuit.

Shucks? Is that a corn joke? ;)

I do? Hmm, you seem surprised. I'll work it out so I'm free on Monday.

Bring a magazine? Nah, it isn't poor form. Are you actually going to a game? It is a beautiful day, so the game should be good.

RE: RE: Well, well, well

Yes, it was. I don't know.

Aw, shucks. ;)

Oh, well, we didn't play a game, just watched TV.

You do? Hm. Will I see you Monday? I'm free all evening (and night, actually), if you have any time.

I don't know if I can stay awake through all this football today. I wonder if it is okay if I bring a magazine? Is that considered poor form? I hope you have a good time at the game. :)

Talk to you soon.

RE: RE: Well, well, well

I thought it was the reason for the swimsuit.

Well, you're one of them rare intelligent girls!

Yes, you missed me, it would have been great to talk to you.

You're always playing some kind of game with women ;)

Yes, I miss you too - a lot.

RE: RE: Well, well, well

I guess I'm going.

Yes, I have two degrees. :)

Oh, I called you at the office, but I missed you.

I was doubtful that I could have a nap, and I didn't get one. But that's okay. We did, in fact, surprise him, and I think he was happy. It was pretty low-key, but a nice birthday surprise for him. I think his mom and I are going to play some games now. :) Their dog is here so I have a doggy to play with, too.

I miss and love you too, very much.

RE: Thanks

Hey, yes, last night was great. I was so tired and I was asleep in no time, but I woke up around 3 sweating and ended up on the bathroom floor and eventually getting sick (a few times). It is still with me this morning, but I am feeling a little better. It must've been something I ate. I hope you are feeling okay.

Yes, that book should keep you out of trouble.

RE: RE: Well, well, well

You guess? Are you going or not?

I just looked up the definition, so I guess you're one.

There are no "missed calls" on my phone. If you called the office, I left before noon - worked over earlier in the week, and us contractors aren't allowed overtime so had to cut my day short.

Are you doubtful that you can surprise him, take the nap, or both? Well, I hope you had a good nap.

I love you.

RE: RE: Well, well, well

Yeah, I guess.

Just went to see the movie. It was good, again. :) I called, but you weren't answering. :( But then you never take my calls!

They apparently sold all the flags right away, so no, I didn't get one.

Think I'm going to take a short nap before we go surprise him, if I can.

Eh, it's alright.

Talk to you soon.

RE: RE: Well, well, well

Well, you'll be off soon.

That is a lot of flags. Did you buy a flag?

Yeah, football tomorrow, I'm sure you'll be watching the big showdown tomorrow!

Ah, she whined a lot about the finger. She ate like her arm was broken. It was funny for a bit, but then just annoying :/

Tampons go bad? Wow, learn something new everyday.

Hope you're having fun.

RE: RE: Well, well, well

Not quite a jetsetter, huh?

Hm, well, he doesn't have a clue. ;)

I told them I hadn't seen it. Yeah, I lied. But I don't mind going again. We went to see this thing called the Healing Field, where someone put up an American flag for each person killed on 9/11. It was kind of cool to see.

And sad. They're selling the flags to raise money for some charities. Not much else going on. Have to go get a card and some other stuff for the party. They guys are gone all day golfing. Then football tomorrow!!!

I'll watch for you at the game.

She is being pathetic? :) Well, I hope you had fun.

You always have good dinnertable conversation. Lynn was talking about the old tampons that her daughter got out of her cabinet and how they were outdated. She says, "what, they won't go in?" Ha.

No confrontations over the email! Have a good Friday. :) Talk to you soon.

RE: RE: Well, well, well

You travel to all the exotic places ... ;) I'm glad you made it safely - I can stop worrying (until Sunday).

I'm thinking, do I point out the error in your sentence (Brad doesn't have a club?) - oops, I just did it!

Hmm, I'm not sure I'd want to see that movie again (without you), but I'm sure you'll have fun, just try not to cough and bother the rest of the audience (and, that cough doesn't keep me away). I'm kind of surprised that you didn't throw a fit and make them go to a different movie. Oh, and any confrontation over you ignoring those emails?

An okay day. Let's see, the usual work stuff and lunch the Mexican place so I start talking about that Talk Sex show and the butt plug caller and then notice the two tables around us are quiet and looking strange. I met our buddy after work, she is so milking that thumb injury, I'm surprised she isn't using handicap parking spaces. She had no exciting stories, so not much else to say about that.

Talk to you soon.

Re: RE: Well, well, well

Hi,

Made it! Funny to be here when there's good weather. Usually, it's 40 below. I kind of forgot the bday party tomorrow is a surprise. Everyone is nervous about screwing it up somehow, but the consensus seems to be that he doesn't have a clue. He's weird,though. He wanted his mom to tell him where she was taking him for dinner (the story to get him there) and what he would have so he wouldn't have the same thing for lunch. He's acting like he's 80!

Looks like I'm going to see Little Miss Sunshine again tomorrow with the girls. Good thing I liked it. ;) Well, I still have my cough. Guess I should have gone to the doctor before now. At least it keeps people away from me. ;)

Hope you're having a good day. I'll bring you back an ear of corn too. Talk to you soon,

RE: Area 25

Geez, thanks, this sounds like a plan.

Re: RE: Well, well, well

Yes, yes it is :)

Riiiiiiight.

Mmm, pork chops, well, I hope you have some fun.

RE: Well, well, well

Yeah, it's always great for you to see me. ;)

Don't get into too much trouble "working" this weekend. I know how you can be. You're such a bad influence on all those hard-working, naive people over there.

I'll bring you back a pork chop.

RE: Well, well, well

You're a nut.

It was great to see YOU. Yep, gotta wear those shorts while I can :)

You always make that place sound so exciting! Well, I'm going to the football game on Saturday and supposed to work Sunday - so my weekend is set.

Here's the book I have for you - "On Seven Loves" http://www.amazon.com/Seven-Loves-Novel-Valerie-Trueblood/dp/0316058939

I hope you have a safe and uneventful plane ride. Don't forget that lotion :)

Reminder, don't drink beer ;)

Well, well, well

Okay, so now I know I don't have to ask that question. ;)

Thanks for meeting me. It was too short, but I'm glad I got to see you.
You're cute in your shorts. Fall's coming and you won't be able to wear them for long, though. Now I really am pretty sleepy, and I think you must be too. I'll e-mail you or call you or otherwise harass you over the weekend, okay? Hey, Iowa is not that exciting. I know I've made it sound that way, but it's really not. So I'll be bored and I'll miss you. Now I have to go find some books to take along with me.

Night,

Remind me not to drink beer. Ugh, it makes me feel so gross. :(

RE: Leaving

Hi,

I'm meeting her at 1:00 tomorrow. Not sure how long we'll beparty planning, so do you want to meet before that? Except I know you like to sleep in on the weekend. If that's okay, I can meet you any time before that. Not sure what there is to do in the morning, except, well...I can think of one thing.

Enjoy the game. :)